food for thought =)

Just received this email from Mei Ling..really meaninful =) do read it and reflect upon it!

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar... and the coffee...?

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was?

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full.?They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognise that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things. Your family, your children, your faith, your health,your friends, and your favourite passions. Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter. Your job, your house, and your car.

The sand?is everything else. The small stuff.?If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

prayer is powerful, it really is

Being able to pray every single night like this is really such a meaningful and lovely thing and i really love it =)

truly, without God, nothing will work and everything will be futile.

God works as the basis of foundation for any single thing, be it studies or any other life issues.

He has showered me with so many blessings and truly, i'm thankful =)

-never underestimate the power of prayer for it is powerful and mighty indeed-

quick quick quick!

Davina is a lil unwell today but she's still happy =) not because of my mno paper though. just hope i cld at least get a B for it.

I really can't wait for 5th December now - the day i'm freed of the exam monster. And i wish it was morning paper..evening paper makes everything seems sooo long. and she could only yearn time pass quickly.

i realised..

i lost the drive to study. initially i wanted time to pass slower so i got more time to study. But as i see 5th December getting nearer and nearer, i wish time faster pass so i can get it over and done with for all my papers. i know i'll be happpyyy on that day =)

you know why.... :)

so fri is my FNA paper...urgh. i so dun want it to kill me. i have low confidence and kinda fear this subject. pray pray pray..after this paper i'll be relieved. just took a good 1 hour nap. i'm refreshed and smiley now! i'll do my best!!

GANBATTE!

ohh...and i reallllliii can't wait for x'mas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woo Hoo!! =D *dance arnd in glee*

I am mathified.

The whole day was spent on doing maths, maths and more maths. practised till i felt so drained and bored...and i haven't reached that level of being able to do fast and without looking at the solutions haha. boo hoo.

but still, studying maths is much better than mle. seriously blank about that subject.

but anyway, i felt so restless and bored in the midst of practicing that i watched '13 on 30' on HBO. quite a funny movie..but didn't finish coz i was feeling guilty halfway. heh heh.

and as u can tell, i'm bored now too..and thats why i'm blogging for the sake of blogging...

well, life is good still and always giving thanks for everything.

I believe God is guiding and working in us =)

keep going ppl!

The battle has begun!

I've just had my first exam in uni a few hours back.

After the 2 hours of scratching head, flipping papers, intensive scrabbling...it just seems that time passes so fast. The end of a 2 hour paper marks the end of an entire module which i've been doing for 5 months already. All the projects, assignments, research, writing, thinking...and through it all, beautiful friendships have been created. =) my ctw class has been wonderful, i can't give more thanks. and my tutor is one of the best i've ever come across in uni so far...in all, this module, though a lil heavy, it has been fun.

I had lunch with my cousin Yijun and my brother...finally saw his room in kuok (i kinda like it there compared to pgp, maybe i'll relocate in year 2 heh heh) Lunch at botak jones was good (its a stall in a coffee shop that sells western food and is superbly well known for customer service and good price with food coming in big big portions..shld go see their sausage.. ENORMOUS! ) had a great time catching up with my bro and my cousin..as we giggle and gossip abt life in uni. =) though all 3 of us found our papers tough today, dont worry okie..we'll do fine ultimately. Results isn't everything anyway!

Really, i sincerely give thanks to God today for guiding me through, for the friends that have shown me constant encouragement, for everything and anything.

lets remember to give thanks depsite the grades...coz ultimately, God is in control of everything.

I'm entrusting the entire exam into His hands..for this exam is not for my glory, but His. =)

Let's strive on with faith and in love. To all my friends, you've got my utmost support. together, we'll run the race..God bless!

See how much Davina has grown! HAHAHA

i'm taking a BREAK from studying...
Not that i've got lots of time to spare to blog such wu liao stuff but heh, studying is so monotonous! haha...though i still have sooo soo much to study. bleah. its never ending anyway. heh heh.

I;ve decided to do a lil welfare stuff for all my uni friends who will be going thru the horrendous exams in a few days time. My blog will serve as a stress-reliever kit! i know how stressed we all can get. To prevent all of us from going INSANE, we all need some laughter to cheer us up! haha


so..here's a sneak preview of my pics when i was young!!! SEE HOW MUCH I'VE GROWN! haha from a lil baby....so innocent. giggles..


AND...

DO YOU THINK I LOOK LIKE A BOY WHEN I WAS A BABY?! haha! some ppl told me that.

LOOK AT MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE GENUINE ESPLANADE!!!!! wahahha! am i doing sorta like a hip hip hurray action? hahaha...i'm goin nuts






















AND HER HAIR STARTS TO GROW..AND NO MORE DURIANS NOW. heh heh i was plump when i was young. hmm..think chubby is a nicer word. ahahha.




















Why do i seem to open my mouth when i take picture?! haha i just realised...

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AND THEN SHE STARTS GROWING THINNER. and she was a regular yamaha student for 6 years ..i started young! look at the t shirt? ohh and my hair accessories! used to have a basketful of them and i will choose wad i want and my maid will help me tie my hair. hahahha...



















and she is thoroughly blessed with a doting and caring brother who's currently chionging the exam race with her too!




















to everyone including my bro: JIA YOU! =) and remember to give thanks to God for everything! will pray!

ME STRESSED!

A pic of me at the zoo. I'm as unhappy as that poor little animal. Is that a chimpanzee? *ponders* (i'm sua koo)

ANYWAY!

I'M SICK OF STUDYING!!! i'm here to whineeeeeee hahaha

dav's been so so unproductive, she feels she's gonna screw up & flunk. her brain has a limited capacity and it feels empty. thats bad. where has all the knowledge gone? did they exist in the first place? 5 more days and i've got TONS to study. dun talk about practice. BOO. dav's stressed. and she so badly wanna spend the holidays NOWW. exams are so demoralising. roar. such a toll on the delicate human brain. haha. ok, i'm exaggerating. i'm going inssaannneeee

ok, breathe. God will make a way!

to all who have been or are stressed..here's a vibrant smile from my cute lil coussie to all of you..hope it cheers you up!






















SEE how my cousin, emma, has grown from such a cute lil innocent gal to such a pretty young gal now! heh heh both pics taken at my house. she'll be very popular next time hahaha!


OK...AND SOMETHING FOR ALL OF YOU TO LAUGH AT!

TO RELIEVE STRESS...LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE...

HERE IT IS!!!! HAVE A GOOD LAUGH! =)




MY TRANSFORMATION! (special thanks to Guo Yi hur hur)...any similarity??





















ok..thats all for now.

(gosh, its night already haha. hmm what have i done today? *scratches my head & pulls my hair off* I WANT TIME!!!!!)

thorougly DISAPPOINTED with myself

i'm such an irresponsible freak.

argh.

where have i placed God and His Church in my heart?

Everyone must be disappointed with me. even i myself am so disappointed with myself.

really didn't mean it. wish i could turn back time.

i'm so sorry SYC team..i know all of you have been contributing so much, praying so much, and kept emphasizing the need for unity as one...and yet, i got so cooped up with so many other things and neglected this camp. SIGH. i really dun deserve to be in the comm. what have i done that have helped the team?

i'm just so so so disappointed with myself that i can't concentrate anymore. =(

sigh.

I can't thank all of you enough..

MY 19TH BIRTHDAY...

was splendid.

It's been my best bday so far.

Really thank all of you who have made my 19th bday so special. You guys have truly touched my heart and i really thank God for all of you.

Saturday (11/11)
Jess came to my house that day and we had a good time catching up. I hope your problem has more or less been resolved. =) hope i was of some help! happy to help you! and i was really happy to see you once again, and if you do need any listening ear, or help, just feel free to call or sms me k! i'll be there =) and thanks for your lovely bag and letter you wrote to me. Really sweet..love ya dear. i truly cherish our 10 and going years of friendship! it's been a long time, but it'll continue to grow in years to come, i promise. Thank God for such a wonderful best friend like you!!

Sunday (12/11)
I went to church for service and expected to rot the rest of the day quietly and boringly in my room. Never did i expect the sudden violent knock on the door at approx 2pm. I was bewildered. Who in my family would knock so hard? Hardly were there times when my family members would knock on my door. They would just open as and when they like. Shocked, and stunned, i just shouted, "YA?" and ta da! I had a BIG SURPRISE!

Right there standing at my room's door was PUI SZE, HUI LIN, MIN HWEE AND SANDRA! i was so shocked that i was speechless! Apparently, i was in quite an unglam state coz at home ma! hahaha and my room all in a mess and all..so paiseh. haha they nvr give me any hints! truly, i was shocked! you guys succeeded in ur surprise! and i knew my brother was involved in their secret plan! =) Those lovely darlings of mine came with a really rich chocolate cake and we cut them together with my family (who were also in shock) haha. My parents bought me a mango cake as well, so we cut 2 cakes one after another! thanks sweeties! and for the presents too..the lovely bag, both chip and dale key chain, pui sze's handmade cup cakes! and to sandra's ku ma, i really very touched to receive a present from her! haha..got to know san's ku ma when we did yuting's bday present this year at her house. glad she remembered me even though she calls me 'ribena' haha. =) san! your ku ma really nice! lets meet up together one day and eat 'fa shan hu' and 'chee cheong fan' together k! we spent a good solid 4 hours watching tv, looking at my holiday photos, playing guitar in my room, and just crapping! you guys made my sunday! so so happy!! and i had family dinner that night at Siglap's 'BIG FISH'. The food was really good and i had a great time bonding with my family =) thank you bro, daddy and mama. love ya all!!

Mon (13/11 - Actual bday)
Haha..i expected this day to be really simple...just meeting my 'kor' - Zhi zhong, for lunch and then go for dg and all. Never did i expect you to come with up with such a pleasant surprise for me. Thank you for being so thoughtful and arranging Acqua to come down to biz after my lecture and surprise me with a cake! Ice cream cake somemore..really delicious. Can't thank you enough. and to the rest of my acqua mates, thanks for coming down! really appreciate it! i was truly touched and surprised! you all got me there! really thought i was going to meet zhi zhong only. and 'kor', pls pls plsss do take care of ur health. hope ur heart gets better k! will pray for ya.

And my beloved DGL was so sweet. She bought pizza and a cake to celebrate my bday with the rest of my dg members during group time. And they wrote me a card..it was really sweet. their prayers for me and all on my bday...i am really thankful for them. Hope we all continue to grow spiritually and walk in the Christian road together for the next 4 years. =)

and thanks for spending the last few hours of my bday with me =)

Wed (15/11)
My dearest bitsies bluf me! i got cheated! haha i really thought we were going to k box! apparently, san told me that there's a new k box at Choa Chu Kang and thus i was asked to go there. I was surprised they asked me to go all the way down to such ulu place haha..when there's k box at clementi. But i didn't think too much into it. When i reached choa chu kang, i was asked to meet them at bus interchange. i was curious..why must take bus one? they said you can't walk to k box from mrt..quite far. And the bus ride was so long! haha didn't look like we're going to k box! and when i saw the road sign, 'MANDAI ZOO'. Then i got it! whoa lao..i super slow la! hahahha...it started to pour before we reached, and they were sad. haha..i was still wondering why sad since k box is not open area wad. Then i got it. haha. see how slow i am. And san kept saying, it might just be a passing cloud haha. It was funny! coz it didn't seem like its passing by only. haha. But thank God! the rain wasn't that heavy after we had our lunch at KFC! just slight drizzle!

thank you dearies for remembering that i wanna go to the zoo..something i requested you all to follow me go during our after a levels break! haha, but didn't manage to go then. indeed, i was shocked that you all brought me to the zoo though coz every time we go k box one ma! but this surprise really got me! =) kudos to you two! And thank you for all the presents! The really pretty picture board, the glow in the dark bottle, the wired name book mark, the chip and dale speaker, the self designed shoes, the socks that accompanies it, the cards, the tweety bird balloon, and the delicious biscuits and chocs! i'm really really very touched!! no words can express it really.

We had so much fun taking pictures and exploring the zoo with the map, despite the slight drizzle. It was such an educational trip! haha the orang utans were the cutest right! saw so many so many animals, had so much fun laughing and seeing yuting complaining how itchy she was coz of the many mosquito bites! It's been donkey years since i last went to the zoo!! and we truly enjoyed ourselves i'm sure =) and eating B&J icecream in the end! no words can describe the fun we had..so wait and see the pictures!

Just wanna say thank you to both of you, for making the effort to make my presents and think of such novel ideas to surprise me despite this busy period. I know how busy we are..esp yuting, how she had to chiong her project the past few weeks, with such minimal sleep. And yet, you all still met up to do my present and all. Really am so touched! You two are such darlings! Let's work hard for the next few weeks and then we'll celebrate on the 7th of Dec for k box okiez! we'll be high then i'm sure! =) with our bitsie power, we'll trash those nus papers ok! i'm always there to support you two! Love ya bitsies! HUGS. =)

And thank you to everyone else who remembered my bday and wished me. Cheng Hyork, Alex, Siang Weng, Zeinab, Guo Yi, Clara, Mei ling and jonathan from kpmg, polly my cousin, my maid, jia jia, Guo Liang, Xin Ling, Yi Ling, Guang Yi, Zach, Magdalena, Ivan, Wei liang, Padma, Siu Fen, Wilson, the entire Acqua, Muskebbits, Pui Sze, min hwee, hui lin, min joo, jess.....thank YOU ALL SO SO MUCH! LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS!!! (I hope i didn't miss out anyone!)

truly, i didn't expect my birthday to be so wonderful. Just a few days before my bday, i was thinking that my bday wld be very very quiet this year. Thank you all for all the surprises and well wishes. I am really blessed. =) Thank God for all of you!

don't have the cable to upload pics in pgp. will upload them another time! =)

9 November'06

=)

Today, today.. have been an extraordinary day.

Truly, today is probably the first time i felt so drained. Emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually.

That I felt so tired to do anything but to stare at my notes with negative thoughts lingering all over my head. I suppressed my feelings, and tried to smile. I guess i was successful since no one questioned if i was ok. Perhaps i have mastered that skill. The library seems to be my home in nus, a place where it is relatively quiet and i don't have to talk or smile and can just quietly pretend to study and escape from the world.

Today, i felt like running away..to somewhere far far away. I imagined myself hiding in some deserted place at night...imagined myeslf going abroad and wander around till i got lost...Today, i felt tired from asking God to guide me. Somehow, i have been praying and praying but i'm impatient. I want an ans. And i know God told me not to be anxious. Perhaps God is tired of listening to me everyday. Though i know everyone wld tell me otherwise.

Today is extraordinary coz God heard me. I was depressed, in distress, and Jess's msg came right in time, asking me if everything was alright. Dear, i know you're with me and it warms my heart. God sent her to me. Thankful for that. I was on the brink of tears, but i held on. and somehow, sandra was arnd to brighten me up. I realised then that in bad times, i cannot be left alone. Foolish thoughts will flood my mind. i would need things to occupy my thoughts.

Thanks san for the wonderful dinner we had and the awesome night we had yest. will upload the pics another time.

Through it all, God pulled me through today and i should be more than thankful. my faith is probably not as strong, but i hope its enough to sustain me through. and truly, no matter how many bad times we may have, you've been a true blessing. thank God for you. The human's heart is an amazing little thing God has created..something so mysterious and bewildering. or is it just me..perhaps..i'm truly disappointed with myself.

A bday treat!

my 2 darlings yi ling and jia min dearly remembered xin ling's and my bday =) and so the bday dinner treat from them!

and they gave us each a flower! mine is pink and xin ling's red! how sweet~! and we had fun catching up and getting to know how they're doing in uni. Miss them dearly...hope to catch up with them again after exams.

apparently, being photo whores, after dinner..we just had to snap snap and snap! xin ling and jia min even had a flower fight! and i took a video of it hehehe...

though u guys might not be seeing this, but anyhow, thanks for the dinner and flower and everything. you guys are such sweethearts =) hugs.
















the mini battle they had...my poor flower..
















i requested them to do ghostly faces. they are simply so cute..















and i wanted to participate...mine didn't turn out ghostly..but look at jia min! looks scary! esp her claws haha
















ok the bday gal with her sweet little flower..
















just acting cheeky..'acting' :P
















see how happy jia min is when ppl are taking her photos! she claimed, " i feel like a model" hahahaha. she's one pretty babe
















us! like this pic lots!
















smilee~!
















with yi ling!

















the bday gals. it was so coincidental both of us wore pink today. great minds think alike? =)
















cheers to us for our 19th bday! she's 19 but mine..close! sweet sweet 19

God is forever faithful really. He brings people to brace me up as i journey through life. Really thankful. I had a good time of sharing with Gen today as we did our follow up. The testimonies we shared, the struggles we're facing now, the advices we provide for each other, and simply just praying with each other..all these encourages me and keeps me going. Such a dear sister in Christ. I might establish a mentor mentee relationship with her, as she suggested, but i'll pray abt it =) It would be nice to have someone more spiritually mature than me to guide me along and keep me on the right track.

I feel comforted, knowing how God has worked so wonderfully in people's lives. Testimonies are really amazing. That God will never forsake us and give us too big a problem that we cannot pull through. And when we look back at the dark times, we can see how God has helped us through and marvel at God's wonderful plan He has for each and everyone of us.

Key verse for follow up today.

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."

I have this sense of peace in my heart that God is guiding me as i walk closer with Him. I have been reminded during the past 2 days that whatever decision you make, do not be afraid if its wrong. As long as you're working in accordance with God's will, always committed and faithful to God, even if the decision is wrong, God can easily steer you back. God is forever faithful. Give thanks. =)

happy sunday! jia min and yi ling gonna give me and xl a bday dinner treat tonite! wee~! been a long time since i last saw those 2 darlings. hope to have a nice time of catching up tonite!

Realised i've not been putting pictures up in my blog so i've decided to put some random pictures up:
















It's totally random that i put this pic here. but i'm reminiscing the-after-a-levels-holidays now as i browse thru the pics in my com. hee hee. we had such a fun wet hike! memories memories..
















san! i thought u might want this since i didn't bluetooth it to you. such a cutie pic bitsie! giggles. =)





















and finally..i can never have enough of this boy. he's such a cheerful cutsie little boy who never fails to brighten people up. =) God's blessing!

All i can say is that i'm unworthy...and the more i think, the more ashamed i feel.

awesome God

My all time favourite Christian song...

Touching and impactful video. God is awesome indeed.

Michael W. Smith - You Are Holy (Prince of Peace)

" For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles. Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creater-who is forever praised. Amen" Romans 1:21-25

Today has been one of the rarest times that I did my quiet time before i started doing my work. and boy, it was good. I feel calm once again, knowing that i've lifted all my burdends and worries to Him. Came across this verse in Romans and it kinda struck me that I have only worshipped God in name and not in heart. How ashamed i have been.

I have fallen. But I am no longer fallen. I am pulling myself up with God's strength in me. Slowly, I'm growing and turning to God. God - my prince of peace forever. I'll live my life for You. =)

I'm beyond hope. I really don't understand more and more of myself everyday. I feel different from what i think and i act according to what i think. and i dun understand why my feelings are so erratic. and i indulge myself with work which temporarily puts off all these little things that bothers me.

and i realised i'm quite a loner. i enjoy doing things alone, being independent. Strangely, i don't really feel sad being alone. I enjoy stuyding alone, shopping alone at times, eating alone isn't a problem for me. haha i think i should just be a wanderer.

wads wrong with me? i find myself gettting more and more different each day. and my feelings just confused me more and more everyday too. bah. studying is a temporary escape route.

yet, i'm not unhappy. i'm feeling perfectly normal, just wondering why i'm feeling strangely again.