happy teacher's day

I deleted my previous entry coz i don't want anyone to worry... i'm fine, just need a period of time to sort out my feelings and thoughts...

Well, its teacher's day once again!

A pity i can't make my way down to tj and sac this year coz sch ended late for me yesterday. a real pity, coz i miss my teachers so very much.

These are the teachers who have touched my life, encouraged and motivated me, shaping me into who i am today..

Ms Adeline Loh - my dear english tuition teacher in sec sch, whom i appreciate and respect very much. She was constantly there to encourage me when i was struggling with english.. i'll nvr forget the smses she sent to me when i felt down and weak. Those smses have been kept in my heart till now..they were just so important at that point in time. She was also the one who gave me the strength to speak up into who i am today...really, she's one teacher and friend i'll nvr forget.

Ms Josephine Lee - My sec sch tutor too...she really rocks..everything also bao ka liao, science and maths, u name it all..anything, she can just teach. and my lessons with her were always so fun, especially the times she would share her experiences and jokes with me. i am always happy and eager to attend her lessons...without her, i'd probably wun be able to end up where i am today, being able to take chem eng and all...coz she really helped me to lay a strong foundation for science and maths. really glad for her that she has formed her own family.. =)

Ms Karen Teo - She's really really special to me. my favourite teacher and always shall be. When i was emotionally exhausted in sec sch due to some incidences, she was there to listen to me and encourage me. Her replies to me via email were always very enlightening. I still remembered the time i asked her to be my god sis in sec sch! thinking back, that was realy hilarious..she's one teacher who nvr fails to hug her students whenever they are sad, and every teacher's day, i would receive a big tight warm hug from her.. really miss her hugs.. and she's the one who kindled up my interest for geog..her interest and passion to save the earth really inspires me. love her lots.

Ms Siow - my piano teacher for dunno how many donkey years..she's been my piano teacher for a really really long time. probably since primary sch...being a lazy student, i always practise last minute, like half an hour before my lesson. that was how bad it was. and its usually the case that i would play really badly but she although a little irritated at times, would still try to be patient and not give up hope on me. every lesson, we wld chit chat during certain intervals and it was always entertaining. i miss her loads..

Ms Kwan, Mrs Kay, Mrs Leong, Mr Foo, Mr Desai...are all my jc tutors. really miss them too...they are the best tutors u can ever find. always so patient, warm and approachable. the fun my class had during their lessons can never be replaced. i love tj precisely because of these teachers..dedicated and warm. they seem more like friends than tutors to us.

Mrs Boo, Ms Adeline Lim, Mrs Heng..my sec sch teachers whom i repsect a lot also. mrs boo's lessons has been the most stress-free..coz she always smile and laugh..and her lessons are usually conducted in a different manner...there wld be quizzes and chemistry games, which were always enjoyable. Ms Lim is my sec 3 & 4 geog teacher..she rocks coz she's another geog teacher who made me fall in love with geog. However strict she may be, she's always easy to approach. i remember the numerous times i made appointments with her, and we would stay back after sch just to clarify my doubts. mrs heng is the nicest teacher u can ever find. she doesn't scold, and will never never hurt her students. if we do something wrong, she wld just tell u nicely and thats it. and so often, students wld step over her shoes. poor her. i remember the time our sch didn't get gold for syf guitar, and i was crying ( so were the other guitar members) coz we really worked so hard and had high expectations...i was in her class then, crying, and she came over to me to comfort me and talk to me. wah, she's just soo soo sweet.

really thank God for all these teachers who have moulded me into who i am today. each of them have played a significant role in touching my life in one way or another. really miss all of them..

just wanna wish them a special and happy teacher's day!

i sent smses to almost all of them today..and its heartening to receive their replies, at least knowing that they didn't forget me, nor have i forgotten abt them. God bless them all..

I am losing the enthusiasm to blog nowadays..lazy mode is up already. bad sign. heh. but i think my darling min hwee is worse! :P (oops dun kill me hehe..i always dun see u in sch la! so sad !!! wad kind of darling is this huh?! hee!)

anyway, yesterday was elections day for ChESS. Congrats to all those who got their post! well, many and i really mean 'many' people came to ask why i'm stepping down. Guess it's kinda vexing having me to repeat all the time, though i do understand their curiosity. WELL! that's the choice i have made. I know some wld prefer me to run and serve ChESS, i really appreciate that and am glad u all think that i will do a good job..but somehow, i kinda lost my confidence and interest. call me fickle if u want. i really am. thats me...grew up like that...not easy to change, but yea, i'll try to change anyhow.

well...lectures are getting cheemer day by day, and making me more blur day by day. bad sign again. but that means i have to put in more effort to do my own study and readings. the pace is fast, everyone knows it even though some may treat it with indifference. i'm gonna focus and fulfill my responsibility as a student and a daughter.

i guess everyone has his or her ups n downs, i too have mine. and its frequent, erratic emotions u call it. i am still me, i'd prefer to keep it inside. dun force me to say it out, coz if i wanna say it out, i will do it...i just need some time to settle my emotions and thoughts.. dun question and dun think i'm sad if i'm not smiling. it's tiring to smile all the time..especially forced smiles..so if i'm not smiling, i'd probably feeling tired or just in thought, or just wanna be alone. doesn't mean i'm sad ya...i'm going through a slight struggle now with my feelings and faith and all. so right now, my main focus wld be to seek Him and renew my faith.

dun think i'll be blogging often anymore...unless i feel the urge too. i'll continue to pray for my friends and all, hope u guys are alright yea..God bless u all =)

jess, i know ur com is down. but just wana wish u bon voyage and have a great and pleasant trip! will miss u lotssssssssssssssssssssssssss and lotssssssssssssssssssssssssss though its just 5 days, I WILL MISS U!!! =) i know the tide is high for u right now, soon it will subside...lets cont to keep each other in prayer. God loves u and so do i! muackz!

anyway here's little caleb who keeps everyone happy all the time! my official cutiepie! ;) grinz

These are some of the photos taken during yuting's bday..san, thanks for uploading it! i love the collage! =)
















SAN, WE DID IT!
















i agree with san..its so so beautiful!
















yuting..why cant u cry?! haha
















surprise!!

















can u believe it? i actually am doing some cooking?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BITSIE YUTING!!

Bitsie the great! HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAYY!!! =)

bitsie bao ka liao has posted a long long long post on her blog on yuting's bday! I shall do a summary of her bday instead heez.

This dearest bday gal never fail to surprise us every year! Last year, somehow or rather, her bday landed in the midst of our prelims, and thus we cldn't go out and celebrate. This year, is slightly more complicating! Initially, we wanted to book her on friday and sunday to celebrate her bday. After sending her a bday sms at 1200 on the 25 Aug, her reply made me wanna faint. haha she can't make it for sunday's outing! WAHHH there goes our plan. so first plan failed. But we still wanted to give her a surprise in sch on friday. When all the groceries have been bought and me and sandra were on our way to her gu ma's house to make sushi, we decided to book yuting at arnd 6pm in sch. WHO WOULD EXPECT HER TO SKIP SCH ON THAT DAY! win already haha...the situation was so funny in the train. Me and sandra were stunned, shocked with disbelief, and both of us literally looked at the ntuc bags..and thought, 'now wad? wad are we going to do with the sushi!' WAHH WE WANTED TO SCREAM LIAO hahahha ok, so 2nd plan failed. We wanted to pop by her hostel and SURPRISE! but haiya..this gal very busy...

soo....

we had to change plan again. End up, we might as well just ask her which time of her day wld she be free....and we finally booked her after her dinner with her parents. soo...we continued with the sushi making plan. haha! boy, it was fun! though i wish sandra cld teach me the proper way of rolling the sushi! coz halfway, she had to make her way back to nus to collect her lap top. but anyway, i learnt some cooking skills from san's gu ma! yay...cooking is fun! and her gu ma very willing to help me though i think she's shocked that i dunno how to do basic cooking! haha...oopsie.. me not cut out to be housewife one.. :P so anyway, its not that bad ok! the egg i fried was the besttt!!! sweetness was just alright and not burnt and without shells! considered great achievement liao! (just let me self praise a little)

And i talked to san's gu ma for quite some time! abt an hour or so? hahaha gossiped abt sandra! san...are u curious??? hahaha...i kept praising u la, and u rejected my praise! so sad!!! :P i know deeepppp secretssss about u already.....bwahahahha bewareeeee.... but her gu ma really friendly, had a nice chat esp when we talked some stuff abt work and all...its interesting to hear an older generation's view point sometimes. anyway, sushi making was pretty successful and enriching!

San cldn't make her way back in time, so i left her gu ma's place for NUS to attend ChESS interview. AIYOO ITS 6PM LA...made me rush for nth! i was told to be there at 5pm! :P but anyway, its blessing in disguise, coz that gave me time to do my follow up. Interview was really draggy, it went so slowly that we stayed from like 6 to 8? And that made our way down to PS for dinner with og.

By the time i got my food, it was almost 10pm! can u imagine?! ahhaa i was starving...but anyway, lucky i was quite in time to meet san at simei..guess wad time we met? 10.50 pm! and we were both soo hot and tired (make yuting guilty a bit heh heh) Thanks to san's gd directions, we managed to make our way to her house. After 5 mins of surprise from us, we got a surprise instead! haha..coz yuting's other grp of friends pop by her house as well to cut cake! wah next time, must liase with them for timing hahaha =) Anyway, everything went on smoothly and all. Initially, we only gave her our identity necklace haha and make her think thats her ONLY present! But as always, we are full of surprises! Of course her present not so simple la... =) got scrap book, video, and another diy necklace! U MUST WEAR OFTEN OK! our hardwork! hehe..but unfortunately, didn't manage to make her cry la..hai, sandra, we failed in that part again! haha but at least she felt touched! so yay... =)

Wah, seems like this's not a summary after all..oops...didn't expect myself to write so much!

Anyway, bitsie e great, happy happy birthday ya! Though we went through quite a bit of hassle trying to surprise u on ur special day, it was worth it! Seeing that jubilant smile on ur face warms our heart, and we really felt that our efforts didn't go down the drain! The whole process of preparing for ur bday celebration was quite fun actually! haha right san?! Am really really happy that u like the gifts and all. I pray that u'll continue to stay happy and pretty! and please...next bday, give us some inside info k..so its easier to plan ahhaha...we want to 'da ting' also very hard. haha.. all in all, i hope u've enjoyed urself. You're a great blessing to us, ur friendship means so much to me and san =) dun need to feel guilty ok!!! ;)

haha and san! YAY!!! WE DID IT!!! (Give u a big pat on ur shoulder and a warm tight hug!) haha we had so much fun hunting down stuff to make necklace, eating chee chong fun and ji ma hu (next time must go again! haha), cracking our brains thinking of wad design we should do ...(gosh, from a pearl black necklace to such a colourful one! see how creative we are) and also doing the scrap book was fun! and laughing at yuting as we 'make over' her clothes! hahaha...and the video and sushi! 3 cheers to us!!!

LOVE U ALL MY DEAREST BITSIES! =)

Hey Pastor Joel,

Thanks so much for praying for me =) It's really heart warming to receive an sms from you, saying that u've prayed for me tonight. Right now, my life is quite unsettled and my walk with God seems a little shaky these days. Sch work is piling up and my focus on God seems to sidetrack at times...and in the midst of all this, you prayed for me. Really thank God for you. =) You're such a blessing, really.

Just wanna let u know that i'll keep u in my prayers too and pray that God will continue to speak to u! God bless u and loves u! =) take lotsa care!



A friend recently told me that his faith is getting nowhere and started to ponder abt the existence of God. He said that time is ticking away, and he doesnt want to risk his time waiting for God to speak to him. I told him that life is short, but eternity is long. And he asked, 'are u willing to sacrifice your everything to Him? even your parents?'

My reply was immediate, i said 'yes, even though i know its not easy'. well, i've been praying for my mom, hoping she can come to christ soon. I'm sure God will answer my prayer soon =) Anyway, he told me he's feeling frustrated with life and all and wanna handle things alone without seeking God's help. How is that possible? Human's strength is limited and our strength comes from Him! He chose to believe that with discipline, its possible..but thats so not true though i do understand his thinking at this point of his life.

I also clearly remembered him linking people's faith for God with escapist mentality, like how u choose to believe God heals just as a form of self comfort to protect yourself. I wasnt really sure how to ans this question of his..so perhaps my christian blog readers can drop me a tag or two =)

anyway, like wad i expected, he hasn't been praying or reading God's word. That's probably why he can't feel or hear him. How can a relationship work out without communication? And we have a relationship with God..thats wad christianity is all about. So i encouraged him to take time to pray and read his word once again, and attend church. I sure do hope that he recovers his faith! God bless him!

We love because He first loved us...

beauttiffulll life =)

Life is short, but it's beautiful.

i can't agree more to what u said a few days ago =)

I'm starting to feel the rhythm of school life once again after a seemingly long holiday to some, but not for me. heh. Lectures are getting more and more complex, tutorials are about to begin, homework is piling up, outings are becoming less and less frequent which inevitably sums up to one word 'stress'. And i know many of us have other commitments other than studies. I too, have to grapple and balance all my other commitments. Really dun wish to neglect any of them. u know wad i mean =) but yet, its not easy to prioritise.

It's time to start my engine going... i need to focus focus focus!!

and i wanna spend more time with my dearies...

And.. just wanna say, thanks for making my life beautiful! =)

RUSSIA 2006

ok, i shall spare u all from seeing too much of my face. Here are some russia pics which i went recently in June. Beaauuutifulll country! Enjoy! =)

Ps: These pics are super nice! i really think it's professional! haha! (of course most of them are not taken by me la) :P





















bro-sis pic =)
















wah my bro so zai! he took this pic! super professional! i love this pic!
















i asked the owner of this doc to let me take a pic with it..and it almost bit me! =( but its really cute yea
















this boy is so cute with the ball! i requested my bro to take it! btw, it looks so sunny rite! its like arnd 9-10 pm? (and ppl are sunbathing at this time!) not joking! russia gets dark arnd 11 plus in summer
















the whole of russia is filled with these little fluffy cotton! it's fun trying to catch them but irritating if u breathe them in hee.
















look at that! sooooo sooo beauuutiffffullll! God is so creative!

















seeee that sunset!!! ohhh my!!

















one of the hotels i stayed in..its called cosmos hotel, symbolising 'space' pretty eh?!
















moscow circus! can't take the performance! sorry!















another awesome pic taken by my bro! russia architecture super gd!
















pretty pretty flowers...

















more flowers..!
















u wun believe this! this is russia's MRT! look at singapore's! haha















Moscow's red square. 'red' meaning beautiful to them =) pretty place but weather very hot!
















family pic! happy familleee!















the famous intercession church in russia! yes, its a church! looks like some sugar factory rite?!


ok..thats all...too many to post..prob hundrerds of them..hehe..hope u guys enjoy seeing it =)

PHOTOS GALORE

This is us, sitting beside the singapore river,
admiring the night scenary in Singapore and
enjoying the cool breeze after the long awaited fireworks fest! =)















In case u guys are wondering, those marks on our faces are shadows!! just a passing remark! haha
















It looks as if we went clubbing! but no, we're outside esplanade! we simply adore this pic dun we?! grinz
















ok more pics coming up! haha this is us, in the bus after Global Day of Prayer..(ya, bus also can take pictures one :P )















i look DRUGGED and hmm cheeky? heh heh
















ok another one! =)
















great event at national stadium! =)

Jess dearie, sorry for taking sooo long to load the pictures...the rest of them can take it from me! haha too many to post it here!!! HAHA =)

0204 class outing!

Spirit Touch Your Church
Kim Bollinger

Lord, I need Your grace and mercy.
I need to pray like never before.
I need the power of your holy spirit
To open Heaven's door.

(Chorus)
Spirit touch Your church, stir the hearts of men.
Revive my soul with your passion once again.
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me.
Let your reign fall on me.

Lord we humbly come before You.
We don't deserve of You what we ask.
But we long to see Your glory.
Restore this dying land.

(Chorus)
Spirit touch Your church, stir the hearts of men.
Revive my soul with your passion once again.
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me.
Let your reign fall on me.

I love this song. Sang this in church today, and i felt uplifted after singing it. It rejuvenates me and refreshes my soul. Anyone who has this song, pls send me k =) thousand thanks!

Today, my jc class went for class outing at the zoo but i didnt go coz i went for 'burn alive' conference organised by church. I didn't hear very good response abt the zoo outing, but hope they had some fun nonetheless. Met them for dinner, but the turn out wasn't really good. Most of the guys went but only 4 girls including me were there. I was pretty amused when i saw the guys..i thought they wld be 'botak' and probably different..but they were all the same as before! Hmm..So everyone was like before, looks wise, character wise, tone wise.

Initially i was really excited and happy meeting them. But i guess someone said something to me that kinda spoil my mood subsequently. Shant elaborate about it, dun wanna talk abt it either..i'll just let it pass =) so the rest of the nite, i wasn't really myself. Just smile when they talk to me, and try to be involved in their conversations. Like what i expected, the usual 2-3 guys brought up the rumours i had in the past. Was pretty irritating and awkward. I didn't know wad to respond, so i just either changed the topic or talk to the girls. Anyway, i was glad that i could see them agian after such a long time.

I'm really alright now... u can trust me on that =)

*I'll post up the pics taken during the outing when i get them!

pure coincidence?

First u realise that one of your acqua grp mate is your brother's friend

then u realise that one of your seniors knows your cousin and sits beside him for lectures

and then just today, u realise that your brother's childhood friend whom i know, has a girlfriend who is one of my acqua seniors.

How 'coincidental' can this be?

In just a few weeks, many 'coincidences' have happened. Someone said before that he doesn't believe in coincidences. Everything is part of God's plan and it may seem that some things happened purely by fate or luck, but he chooses to believe that it's part of God's wonderful plan. Some incidences are just so amusing and amazing that so often makes us surprised...indeed, God is amazing..who can deny that? He can do everything and anything, beyond human imagination. And i'm starting to feel that God puts me in acqua for a reason. It's through acqua that i know so many 'coincidences' as mentioned above. But what's that reason?

Wow. Never would i expect so many connections through the people i met in CHESS camp. As cliche as it may sound, i really think the world is just sooo small.

often, i really wonder what God's plan is for me. Only He knows the answer...

The bright lovely sun rays stream through my window,
making me feel warm and comfy as i hugged on tightly to my bolster.
How i wish I could open my window and take a breather,
with the cool wind blowing across my face,
and the bright sun shining on me.

And as i stepped outside my house,
all i see are large green pastures, with yellow daffodils and white lilies dancing happily with the wind.
And there are small little sheeps running towards me, greeting me 'good morning'.
And as i look further, there lies huge majestic mountains, with snowy mountain caps,
piercing through the gigantic blue sky, with cirrus clouds spreading across it,
creating the most beautiful painting one can ever paint.
And as i glanced to the side, lovely ducks are paddling happily across a clear blue mirror lake,
busy indulging and playing amongst themselves.

And how i wish i was out there, running across the green pastures,
with the breeze accompanying me, and the ducks and sheeps welcoming me.
I wish i could lay myself on the soft green grass, with the blue sky way high above me as i stare at them with a wide smile across my face.

Don't all of us adore and dream of such life? I do and i've been dreaming of it since young! I've always dreamed of migrating to such places especially when i age and retire. but as for now, i've to face reality. When reality sinks into me, it's then i realised life might not turn out the way i want it to. We aren't given life for the sake of pure satisfaction and enjoyment.

Throughout my entire life, it has dawned upon me that i've yet to cherish those arnd me. I've seen the sudden demise of grandparents, friends losing their loved ones, and the drift of friendship as we move on with our lives. Life is short, it really is. You never know what's gonna happen tmr, so we should live each day to the fullest, doing things that are pleasing to the Lord's eyes. Sometimes, i really wonder if i could pull through God's judgement day and enter into eternity. But i know if i live according to His will, i will be able to enter Heaven's gates..so will others =)

Things may not turn out the way we want it to, but remember, we are not living for ourselves, but for God. We should always follow His plan and not ours. =)

Take heart that at least we have God centred in our hearts...

It's said that though friends may not meet everyday, but as long as we are linked heart to heart, the friendship doesn't part. In all, i'm thankful and blessed enough for you to have crossed my life =)

really, i don't see how we can survive without love. Life without love is just totally meaningless.

take care everyone! you all are loved by me! hehe! =)

Had a nice time chatting with u.. =) thanks for all the encouragement and all. u're a blessing from God, really =)

I'm often flooded with a myriad of thoughts, and when it comes, it can get me pretty moody and all. I guess most of us have such experiences. It doesn't feel good i understand, coz it seems as though nothing can be solved or settled down. But God is wonderful, He already has everything planned for us. Just have to walk in faith with Him, and He will lead u to the light. =)

Recently, i've been pessimisstic with school, studies, friends and all. probably coz i'm afraid i can't click with my class, not being able to cope, and start to drift away from my friends..and enter into the lonely world of mine. But i know my friends are right here for me, and i'm right there for them too =) and God never forsakes me. I know that..sometimes, i just wish i could feel more of Him, coz that wld make me feel more assured. call it a lack of faith?

i really yearn for a fun loving and peace loving class, a class where everyone helps each other and push each other along...a class with no competition between ourselves, but just competition with ourselves..a class filled with understanding classmates who cares for u every now and then. if everyone is willing to help each other, how nice wld that be! =) but i know its hard coz not everyone has the same mentality. and i hope i can reach out to my class too!

the road ahead may seem misty to us, but as long as we hold on tight, hand in hand, we'll reach our final destination together.

so to all my friends, remember i'll always be there for u! =)

love ya all...God made each and everyone of u sooo special. Thank God for all of u! huggies =)

first day of sch!

Firstly, didn't mean to worry anyone when i wrote the last post. Just wanted to blog yesterday nite..but i'm really fine now. Don't worry okie! i'm fine and strong! =) thanks for everyone's concern! really touched!

lecture today was quite alright, though i cldn't really hear some bits coz of his accent...so i guess i'll start to sit in front! today was a really long day anyway, i only got back home at 10 pm when i ended lecture at 10am!

Well, after lecture, me and the grp guys kinda bum around in sch. all my girl friends abandoned me somehow! hahah! but its ok, think they got their own stuff to busy with =) i had a fun time hanging arnd with them though i practically got teased every second! boo hoo! :P

Had a mini celebration for shanbing! HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SHANBING!

Then my dear mh and san called me up to jio me down to queensway to eat and shop a little...at first i was reluctant coz i was kinda tired and my bag was relaly heavy! but after hearing them talking abt meatballs, cihcken wings...i decided to go with them! haha after all, long time didn't go out with them already...about a week! hahaha! miss them already! yay, was happy to see them! we had our meatballs and chicken wings at ikea! it was reallli goood!!! thanks san and mh for introducing me that eating place! so yummy! we had a great time savouring the food! haha!

then we went to shop ..coz i wanted to buy shoe and san and i wanted to buy bag...in the end san cldn't find her bag =(. i got an adidas sneakers! think its quite nice! yay! =) ooh and we each bought a 'cha ye dan' aka tea leave egg? haha it was yummy! rite dearies? haha and u guys were so funny..always making me laugh as we talked abt our o-week and all! anyway, its always fun and enjoyable hanging out with u all...bitsie yuting...must meet up soon k! miss u lots too! ;)

its been a long day and my oh my, i have to wake up at 6.15 AM tmr??? how i wish i'm staying directly beside or opp NUS! but nvm, the east side has its own benefits! =)

something abt myself

I'm feeling pretty down now but i realised, i'd rather keep such feelings within me rather than letting it out. Just a while ago, some friends on msn asked me how am i and all, and all i replied was, 'i'm fine'.

Perhaps i prefer not to worry others, and i'd rather they busy themselves with their stuff rather than comforting me and all. I think i'm someone who would rather bottle up my feelings but i do know that if it accumulates, one day i'll probably just break down. I still remember in jc, how i really kept lots of things to myself..not letting any of my jc friends know wads going on...it felt awful but then, somehow, there's smth hindering me from saying it out. Other than jess i suppose =)

Not really in a good mood now. Don't ask me what happened, coz i myself am not very sure. but i guess i'd be fine tmr =) at times like this, i really wish i could just face the sea, with the wind blowing across my face and having someone to lean on.

Been really tired these days...it has been a hectic week, with many sch activities going on. but nevertheless, i had my portion of fun and do not have regrets joining all these activities.

surprisingly, ppl like me actually skipped o-week's camp fire and finale night, and almost the whole o-day. wanted to know more abt my classmates via o-day, but got suayed by acqua guys..and skipped it in the end. anyway, we had a fun time at alvin's hall and nick's house. Guess we made fun of each other quite a bit, which made it quite entertaining being with them.

nus rag day was really cool. i mean, i've seen chingay in singapore before..but have not seen one in sch itself! so i guess that's really an eye opener. All the floats were beautifully and ingeniously made..kudos to all the efforts put in! i'm really impressed...and the dance too...most of them are well choreographed! the hall's floats and dance were really awesome i must say =)

and off i went to church. Follow up was great. Thanks gen for sharing your personal testimonies and all...it really reminds me of how amazing God is. Really thank God for the opportunity to do follow up! hope i'll be able to finish it in the end!

i realised i haven't mustered up the courage and confidence to pray out loud...i've tried, but still, i get nervous. i know i just have to talk to God normally and need not care abt wad others are thinking when i pray, but still...maybe i'm not used to it? Really pray and hope that God would give me the strength to be more courageous =)

today, we talked abt wise counsel..which is really cool, coz i remember just talking to you about it the day before...regarding seeking advices from people arnd u. so i just got a nudge that God is speaking to me. well, i feel that its important to seek for advises coz like wad i mentioned today, God speaks through people. It's one of the ways to hear from God...It's really important to note that we shouldn't purely listen to advices arnd us and follow it strictly...instead, we should always have the discerning mind and be aware that we should be looking out for what God wants to speak to us through that person. Most of the time, when we're in a difficult position and need to make a decision, our minds may not be rational and causing us to go to the wrong track. At this point in time, i kinda feel advises from certain people would come in handy since they would be more objective and more rational in thinking. But of course, there's a certain criteria in knowing who to seek counsel from. I guess to me, the most important thing is spritual maturity and also how well that person understands u. We can't simply heed advises from strangers arnd u. and its really amazing how God speaks to u thru ppl sometimes! anyway, wadeva advices u receive, its best to cross check with the bible, and make sure that it's in accordance to His will. Think thats really impt. God wouldnt want us to do anything that is against His will.

Anyway, jess...thanks for being there whenever i need to share my problems and all. You're really God sent! a true blessing...we've seen how God works in us yea? really cool...when i'm having my difficult times, u were there together with God to help me pull through..and surprisingly, somehow, u also will go through similar experiences i went thru...and i was able to advise u wad to do then. and there you go, we made it thru those difficult times! thinking back, God is really wonderful. I thank God for u, really =) love u lots!!

ooh and caleb was soo cheerful today and he's always soo adorable! gosh, he simply makes everyone smile...i was really tired today but seeing caleb's smile and laughter, it just cheers everyone up. He's another blessing! =) he's always the centre of attraction that keeps us distracted most of the time! haha!

then i went with jess to watch fireworks at esplanade..my oh my..it was soooo crowded...packed like sardines! i really dun like crowds sometimes, actually most of the time...i prefer quiet and breezy areas hahaha...the crowd i witnessed today really made me so restless...it's so hard to move and plus the heat and all...wahhhh....but guess it was worth it. the fireworks was great! it was beeauuutiifull though still got blocked by some trees..but much much much better than wad i saw at esplanade during national day! =)

sch is starting really soon and i honestly aint feeling excited abt it. it's going to be a routine all over again..the stressful life and all. sigh. and its all abt independent learning which i havent got used to it. but i guess, i better cherish these 4 years coz i know working is gonna be worse. i shall not take anything for granted..should be thankful for wadever i have...many ppl out there in the world dun even have a chance to study. =( and i should also take this opportunity to reach out to my friends and spread His love, just as how He loves me.

i know uni life would not be easy esp for chem eng, but i guess if God is with us, who can be against us? Draw strength from Him and He will make us whole =) i'll just do things step by step and walk in faith...God will guide us through difficult times. He will make a way!! =)

A day at sentosa

I'm so shagged now...

and i'm 'CHAO TAH'

was exposed to the sun for almost the whole day!

and we were all so hungry in the afternoon coz they didn't provide lunch. so when we met at 9, we went to eat brunch! so imagine..didn't eat anything from like 10 to 8pm. since i only ate dinner when i reached home! haha..

We went to sentosa for beach games today as part of o-week! it was fun, esp since i get to play wet games this time. happy! wet games are always fun =) and my grp ppl are really nice ppl too =) so we had lotsa fun cheering, coming up with a new grp name called 'feng seng' haha..the name of a roti prata shop? think its quite famous haha...so all our cheers changed to something that's got to do with rotiprata and feng seng..like ecstasy, fly kite cheer..its all manipulated to suit our grp name 'feng seng' ..for eg, instead of 'all of u can go fly kite', it becomes 'all of you can eat prata' so hilarous! hahaha...

i guess acqua and amber are 2 very different orientation groups. Acqua is really fun and enthusiastic, and very happening which is something i really like..and the ppl there are easy to mix with and we can bond really well. As for amber, it's more like family kind of group...those we aren't that close yet, we dun play fourfeit at games nor do we create scandals like acqua haha...very different...we talk about different stuff, and eveyrone is quite polite with each other. haha...i've got no regrets going for o-week so far...though it was below my expectations. i still thank God for amber, for the new friends i made and all...it's been a great experience!

i'm tired...skipped the campfire...hope the rest had a great time! almost all of us became lobsters today! thats the result of being lazy to put sun block...its funny..i see many gals wanting to be fair..yet i want to be tan, of course, moderately tan will do. anyway, prob influenced to be tan since i've a bunch of kakis who loves to be tanned..rite bitsies and mh! =) haha! miss u all! =) and san, happy to see u today! u're burnt again! poor gal =(

It's national day! and jess and i were quite excited to watch fireworks from esplanade...but

who would expect us to be at the wrong side of esplanade?

haha...

it was pretty amusing and hilarious coz it was really crowded and we thought most ppl should be there to watch fireworks. But never did we know they were all misled..they thought there was fireworks fest today and thus the huge turnout. We weren't sure where was the kallang stadium as well...so yea, it was a small blunder...

In the end, we walked down esplanade..and saw a huge screen, showing NDP live..so we just stood there and watch the ending...some fireworks...and we could see some fireworks thru some trees a distance away. that was it. quite disappointing but amusing too since it turned out the other way round.

nevertheless, glad the weather was great. God is really wonderful, the sky looked so dark and menacing just an hour or so before the parade started. And glad everyone enjoyed watching the parade, despite watching it at home or at the stadium itself. =)

It's national day today..happy national day everyone! it's our nation's birthday once again =)

Last sunday, i went for FOP with dear jess...it was really great. Although i cldn't really catch the sermon due to the preacher's accent, praise and worship was really good. I've felt 2 messages from God during praise and worship, which were 'You're forgiven child' and 'I'm always with u'. Thank God for His reassurance onto me. And i had a vision, which was a a beam of orange rays shining down from heaven, onto me..with a dove flying above me. It's a really warm and loving vision, which really made my cold hands warm (literally). God's just so amazing, really. God's with us no matter what happens, and He's one God that you can always rely on and lean on during your most unhappy times.

Monday was the start of o-week. It wasn't as fun as CHESS camp, probably because my grp ppl weren't as enthu as my o-week grp members. but neverthless, my grp members are really warm and a nice batch of ppl too. Didn't do much on monday actually, coz FIC took up 3 hours and there were a number of talks. Thanks to acqua guys and seniors who came down on monday night to bring us out for supper at west coast mac. That was really sweet. Sorry to keep u guys waiting for hours..but thanks nevertheless.

Practically didn't get to sleep at all that whole night. oh, thanks alvin for being such a great host at kent ridge hall.. haha..it was really good to be able to bathe with warm water during a rainy night. bet the rest of the gals enjoyed it as much. it was fun talking with u guys. By 5.30am, we had to start our flag day. Gosh, that was really physically draining but a good experience too. Get to meet different types of ppl..we did it from i guess 6 am to arnd 2 pm with many breaks in between haha. Some ppl are really generous, while some gets irritated whenever approached for donations. It's so nice giving those little kids stickers when their parents donate..seeing their cute little smiles can just warm my heart. =) though physically tiring, i guess its worth it since it's for charity.

sch is starting really soon...and i really need to focus. I've got to set my priorities right. and i need to spend more time with God, i really do. I need God in my heart now and forever.

Uncle Lawrence's 60th Birthday!!

Wow it was really good! It's a poolside party @ seletar country club!

Everyone was looking forward to this party...because aunty lisa, the birthday boy's wife, has been planning it for 2 solid years! and everyone just hoped and prayed that it would turn out fine considering all the hard work and all! it's really not easy i must admit...to plan something so big and special behind someone's back. Aunty lisa said there were times she had to wait for uncle lawrence to sleep before she could take his phone and check all his old friend's contacts..and then contact them one by one. Really lotsa hard work!

The deco was really good..the landscape, ambience and all. Lotsa ppl turned up and ppl came from all over the world..they have so many international contacts! i saw a number of angmohs and i think got some french, german etc...and i saw an actress! actually, din't know she was an acttress until my brother and cousins told me...can't rmember her name already..oops! all of us were wondering how she had connections with my uncle hahah!

Anyway it was really sweet..how we pulled the poppers when he arrived...just to see his wide smile on his face warms my heart. wow 60th birthday..i really wonder if my husband or kids wld do that for me next time. haha! juts a passing thought only. and my uncle had to say a speech...and this sentence touched me..he said 'my love for my wife hasn't changed since day 1' it was like..awwww..such a faithful husband! =) he's really blessed for such a wonderful family...thank God for that.

oh!

btw when i left the house, it was drizzling...thank goodness the rain stopped! i did pray! =) thank God for hearing my prayers! see how wonderful God is! i told God if rain were to come, do it in the east..and leave the west dry hahaha...coz it's once in a life time party and i didn't want it to be ruined.

anyway, food was really good! it's done in buffet style...there were several tents..each having different types of food..there were hokkien mee, grilled beef, grilled chicken, crab, sashimi, oysters, coconuts, tempura, roti prata etc etc. i was really really full..hahahha...anyway, food not impt! i am really glad to be able to spend time together with my cousins once again! they're all so adorable in their own little ways. Jiayu, polly and my cutest emma...

Here's a picture of her when she was young! taken at my house! some ppl say she really looked like me when i was young! but now grow up already..not so cute..more pretty =) i pamper her a lot esp when she was young..reminiscing those days i wld piggy back her, hold her hands and all. hehe!

anyway, its sweet how she held my hands today while we went to take food together and explored the club together! her small little hands =) anyway, she's really smart now! the 4 of us were having a conversation abt who getting married first..coz we all haven't got the chance to attend weddings..and all pin pointed to jiayu's brother who is already attached. and cute little emma said to me softly, 'i'll be the last to get married'. imagine my expression! i was laughing at it...haha so adorable remark! and she added, 'u all will be aunties by the time i get married' hahaha. she's only primary 3.. =) and then polly went abt telling her mom to let her play golf..some sort of investment..so she said, 'mummy..let me play golf so i can go make friends with all the rich guys there and plan for my future.' this is called tai-tai future hahaha! polly is emma's sister! golf is a high class sport ..and i think it's very cool to see people play golf...i wanna learn it someday! esp when all arnd u is just soft nice green grass, and when u play during sunset..with the breeze and all...its like whoa.... =)

anyway, the cutting cake scene was so touching...the family of 4 went up together to the stage and sang birthday song with my uncle...so heart warming. the love that surrounds and bind the family! =) oh btw, there was even a mini band playing music and singing while we dine and all..some even danced..but mostly cha cha haha..for their generation.

In all, i'm glad everyone had a good time today. I sincerely wish my uncle a really blessed 60th birthday! and may he forever be healthy and happy! and of course, thank God for making this surprise party so successful and wonderful! =)

It's 1.09 now..somehow, i like the peace u get at night. Being able to listen to soothing music in your room, while everywhere else is really quiet. Somehow, it's this time that makes u start reflecting. MSN is on, and a few people are chatting. Not many at this hour though.

Background music: Twins: Wo hen xiang ai ta

It's a really nice song..i love the tune..thanks san for introducing the song to me.. =) very sweet song! those who want, i can send to u via msn!

Anyway, i think this is gonna be a very random post. OH! i must say alvin's dog, 'biscuit', is really so adorable! but he's too hyper and goes licking everybody..it's so nice to be able to keep pets like these! but i think very hard to take care though. had a great time at alvin's house and it's really warm to be with the og once again! wonder if there are any more outings to come..seems like no more follow up outings already! =(

today was bidding day...i think bidding is really competitive and such a chore. Sigh, why can't everybody just get wad he or she wants? It's sad to see how some ppl din manage to get the modules they want...i got my modules, meaning the points i used kinda 'spoil the market'? actually, honestly, i feel a little sorry...it's probable that because of me, some ppl got eliminated from the module. which is not nice? but then again, everyone has to fight for their own modules...sometimes, i really dislike such competition. but in this world, everywhere has competition. and i feel, sometimes, competition will lead to jealousy and jealousy really kills. i've experienced it before and really hate such feelings. with jealousy comes selfishness...its terrible. anyway, i just hope that everyone will be satisfied with wadeva course they get. =)

Bitsies, wld u all like to join vocals for CAC..the vocals is for c-pop which we were looking for isn't it? =) and sandra, i found aerobics at sports club..lets join that k..we made a pact very long liao hahaha.. will let u all know the timings for the welcome session..then u all go also k! =)

sch is starting really soon...time really passes very fast..it seems as if a few weeks ago that i juts took my a levels..come to think of it, i've already spent 7 over months of holiday! but somehow.. i really dun miss studying unlike some of the ns guys...they're missing sch already! all the stress and all that will start to accumulate but i guess, uni will be quite fun though..supposedly the best time of your education path? starting to reminisce jc and sec sch life already...those were the days. =)

Sigh, i've lost interest in going for o-week already...wun be going for the first day which is tmr, which means probably feel outta place on the second day since eveyone know each other already. And sch is starting soon, now i feel like just spending the last week at home, resting and rotting my time away.

Its 2.12 already...haha...i've been chatting with my newly found 'kor' online..thats why..anyway think i'm ending this post!

hope aaron gets well soon from his op! =) and hope san and min hwee have a great smashing time at o-week!

It's 2am and i'm still awake...wide awake. =) and i'm here blogging and chatting on msn at the same time. Thank goodness i can wake up late tmr!

Yesterday was quite good...i finally could wake up late and spend some time at home, just rotting my time away..watching tv, chatting online and so on. It's a nice feeling to be at home. Met Min hwee and San at douby ghaut for dinner and then walked around. Poor min hwee..she was hot all over...gal, u must take care okiez...get well really soon so we can meet up again and have fun! We can go play ur favourite pool and buy our shoes!! hehe..rest well! Anyway, i had a great time with both of them. Laughed a lot as usual...i think i'm practically always happy being with my guitar friends..they are all so fun loving and friendly. Thank God for u all. And i had a good time laughing everytime me and san say, 'JINX, U OWE ME YAKUN KAYA TOAST!' HAHA...we always say this whenever we happen to say the same thing at the same time. And san always got so excited and say it so loud! hahahhaa bitsie ting, u must catch up with us ok! we are quite gd at this already! hahahaah =) thanks for the short but happy time we had together..love u all to bits! =)

san, dun worry abt feeling alone in ur fac. remember, i'm with u in heart! hehehe...i've been thru those times of loneliness too..esp in pri and sec sch...really very sad memories..but then, i pulled through! So can u! i was very very anti-social last time too! but now more outspoken and sociable liao! lets try to be more sociable ok! have faith! slowly, u will grow and become more sociable! hehehehe...so dun worry too much. God and i are with u! Jia you! huggies =)

Anyway, really thankful for my brother! dunno if he reads this blog but anyway, he's really helpful. Thanks for guiding me and telling me which modules i should take =) Really appreciate it! He's the best brother of all =) God's blessing!

Please pray for my dad in beijing..hope he's doing fine overthere. He's gone there for some meeting...pray that he'll have a safe trip back!

I am excited for o-week! Hope its smashing fun! Really thankful for such opportunities of fun and all. Bitisie the great, i miss u! When will your hall camp end? i think we shld have a bitsie outing soon! ;)

Truly, i am blessed. =)