I'm beyond hope. I really don't understand more and more of myself everyday. I feel different from what i think and i act according to what i think. and i dun understand why my feelings are so erratic. and i indulge myself with work which temporarily puts off all these little things that bothers me.

and i realised i'm quite a loner. i enjoy doing things alone, being independent. Strangely, i don't really feel sad being alone. I enjoy stuyding alone, shopping alone at times, eating alone isn't a problem for me. haha i think i should just be a wanderer.

wads wrong with me? i find myself gettting more and more different each day. and my feelings just confused me more and more everyday too. bah. studying is a temporary escape route.

yet, i'm not unhappy. i'm feeling perfectly normal, just wondering why i'm feeling strangely again.