Be it unto me

Be It Unto Me
by Don Moen

Chorus:
Be it unto me
According to your Word
According to your promises
I can stand secure
Carve upon my heart
The truth that sets me free
According to your Word O Lord
Be it unto me

Verse 1:
You promised your word will deliver
Lord, we believe it's true
You promised us joy like a river
Lord we receive it from you
These things you have spoken
And you're bringing to pass
This world's disappearing
But your word will last

Chorus

Verse 2:
You promised to carry our sorrows
Lord, we believe it's true
You promised unending tomorrows
Lord we receive them from you
You'll be our Provider
In Your word it's revealed
By the strifes that You bore
Lord We have been healed

Chorus

"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples"
John 15:7-8

missing you...

It's 2.02am now...





we parted just one hour ago but i'm already missing u so badly...





you'd probably in dreamland right now... and i'll join u soon in new zealand. =)



To you my dearest:

i love you.




















hugs =) =)

sweet dreams darling..

renewed by God's grace

I'm standing up again.

Thank you friends for prayers. Do continue to pray for us. Really appreciate it. =)

It's time to focus.
It's time to set down to work.
5 more weeks and the race will be over.

By God's grace, we'll reach the finishing line.

hurt

i don't understand why things turned out this way...

my mind is in a whirl.

why does the definition of love differs from people to people?

is it that hard to understand what true love is?

i'm tired.
i'm hurt.

i've had enough of crying.

perhaps this's a test of faith.
yet its so hard to pass this test.

God, give me strength...
God, heal my wound...

but in everything, i know that they did what they did out of love and concern for me...and ultimately, i still thank God for them. And i thank God for my dear.

God, move the mountains...

In the bible, it was said that a faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains...

At this point of my life, when struggles come crashing on me...the only hope is in the Lord. Vulnerable, weak, tired are what i feel physically and mentally right now...but spiritually, i shall stay strong. It really isnt easy esp when exams are drawing near and i'm already struggling to keep afloat with all the stress in school work. I'm heavily burdened with my own personal struggles and one that just poured on me yesterday. Yet, i know that we can lay our burdens at the foot of the cross and God will take it for us.

Dear, it's gonna be a tough period for us. As i cry yesterday, feeling desperate, i am just really thankful for your assurance that no matter what, you'll always be with me. And you'll always love me...and i too, will always love you. We'll prove our love and stand firm with the love of God. For God is the strongest foundation anyone could have...no matter how strong the storm may be, we'll hold on to this strong foundation we have and tide through it.

At this point in my life, where i feel so low and down, i just want to ask my friends to pray for me and my dear...to pray for strength and God to move all these obstacles. And when 2 or 3 are gathered in the name of the Lord, our Father will definitely hear our prayers...

i'm heavily stressed and depressed...but the joy of the Lord is with me, now and forever.

dear, i love you...

A day of being a bridesmaid.

Just a short update.

Yesterday was my cousin Janice's Wedding. My very first cousin to get married and i had the opportunity to be the bridesmaid. gosh. it was tiring. I never expected myself to feel that tired. Having to wake up at 8.30am in the morning and get dressed, put on make up, let my maid do up my hair, wear contacts, wear jewellery, etc etc and set off to the bride's house. There, i had the chance to visit her room and see the make-up artist do her make up and hair. kinda cool. How the tiara was put on, the veil, and when she wore the super gorgeous gown, wow. the gown really pretty! Being the bridesmaid, when the groom came, i had to go to the gate and prevent him from entering. Thus, i had to ask several questions and when answered wrongly, he has to do punishments! but luckily, he got brothers to help. Well, since they answered most of them wrongly, cruel me went to make them do star jumps, push ups in their suits. heee heee. And they had to sing a song...and they sang twinkle twinkle little star..hur so funny coz some of them dun even know how to sing. bad me. haha. The groom had to drink this horrible drink after that and we demanded $$$. wahaha. Then we finally let him in and he entered the bride's room. so sweeet. * beams*

throughout the day, i had to follow the bride for tea ceremony for both sides. And then the solemnization ceremony and the wedding dinner. Everywhere she goes with that gown, i had to tag along behind and carry the gown. its quite ma fan actually. but well oh well! it's actually quite fun and an eye opener. first time i witness the whole wedding like this! now i know how a traditional wedding is supposed to be. hee hee hee.

anyway! just wanna wish my cousin janice and her hubby Terrence a very blissful marriage! They're going to Japan for honeymoon then migrate to melbourne. how envious! i'm still stuck here in nus haha. Hope they 'zao sheng gui zi'! then i'll have niece/ nephew already. but i dun wanna be auntie haha. May their love be everlasting always!

pictures!

my night dresss..

my hairdo

the bride

me

me at my house car porch.

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and on saturday, i was happy that dear went for my cell with me. =) it was meaningful learning about unhurried prayer. Then dear invited me to his brother's birthday dinner. It was seafood buffet. really goood. hope your parents and brother like the presents. we both felt so homely that night =) Thank you dear for making me feel at home. hugs.

miss euu! see ya in a while! =)

-not a short update after all heez-

*time to kick my butt and get myself do some work after a super slack weekend!!

MUCHIE MONKEYS WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS

hee!

FINALLY!

I MANAGED TO MEET UP WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS! =)

i know its been so long since i met all of you...my fault. my bad! i've been busy busy! =) but me really happy to meet all of you today for dinner! (sadly, cldn't see yuting! ah ting! i miss eeeuuuu!!) heez

anyway! we had such a feast! calamari, ham & cheese bake rice, chicken spagetthi, another type of pasta, some pizza, brownie with icecream and choc milkshake!!

i'm super full..u bet. haha. we were bloated but we had so much laughter. think i was crazy. i was spouting nonsense throughout the whole dinner. think i can join mh as lamer. haha..but mh dun wanna friend me. dunno why. sobs.

why all of u suddenly dun want to friend me haha. think only min joo is on my side. hmph! sandra, we hao peng you right?! hao peng you loves rou gan! not u are rou gan! hahaha...and mh! hee hee...i be lamer with u la, then u be my friend. and hui lin and min joo! i got give presents..must be my friend!

gosh. i'm practically sucking up to you all already. hai. why my friends suddenly like that. lolx. i sound so despo now. but oh well, putting aside the jokes and laming arnd, i really had a great time catching up with you girls! been an enjoyable dinner =) i had lotsa fun! though i was victimised hur hur.

sandra, my heart 'per rak' haha! you know wad i mean! *grinz*

and what's the ans to your puzzle! tell me tell me!!!! me wanna knowwwww!

haha

to my girls: huggies :) miss ya all!

i'm truly such a pain

such an eyesore

and my only forte is causing trouble to people

i wonder why God loves me that He sent His son to die for me

what worth am i to deserve this?

why is it that hard to control my mind and heart, my emotions

i don't understand myself

not a single bit.

-wounded-

and the cause of all pain and worries is...

me.

...how stupid...

thank you... =)

it's been a while since i last updated.

well, this whole week was mid term tests..5 in the entire week. and i'm totally drained. maths test was alright, followed by 2 other tests which killed me badly- CM1502 and CN1111. CN1111 is a total goner..100% guaranteed fail. i hope to get at least 20 marks out of 100. that's how bad it is. sigh. i studied hard somemore. killer mod. bah..GEK1532 mcq test was alright..thanks to Guo Yi =) but i s/ued it already. so i barely studied for it anyway. Then this morn was IT1005 programming test. It was really tricky.

to sum it all, this week was really very taxing for me. Sorry to all if i replied your sms-es at an incredibly slow speed, sorry to those who wanted to meet me but i cant...i was just too stressed.

even though my tests ended, i still have tutorials, bio lab, chem lab report, matlab report, so on and so forth. And my saturday is gone already. look, its 9.15 and i haven done anything today. hur hur. i need a break.

ok so that is it.

enough of whining.

now for the more important part...this is dedicated to my dearest =)

Firstly i must say that i've been super duper whiny this week. I was in quite a depressed and stressed mood the entire week, often feeling so down and upset i can't finish studying or don't even know what i'm studying...and often worries that i'll do so badly.

But you never once complained that i was whiny or i was being irritating.

Yet, you were there to listen...you were there to encourage me, comfort me, dry my tears and make me stand up and move on. You were always there when i need you.

You understand that i didn't really have a lot of time this week, that i needed a lot of time to study esp for my cn and cm test on thurs. You understand it all..gave me some space to study the entire day. And you were always a phone away, calling me to wake me up from my short naps, to listen to my whines, to tell me that i can do it, to pray for me.

i was utterly depressed with my cn knowing that i can't even do a simple problem to many, and lost a lot of marks severely...and u were there with me, before and after the test, to pray for me and to hug me and comfort me. i broke down on thurs coz i cldn't take the stress and i was weak, and u cried with me to share my tears. at the end of it all, you put a smile to my face...and i stood up again.

on friday, i realised my pgp lock was spoilt...i couldn't lock my door. i was a little irritated, knowing that i am already busy and i have to fork out time to report this thing and get it fixed. Yet, you were there right after our maths tutorial, and you accompanied me to get it fixed. You were sick really badly, but still helped me with matlab the entire day. i was so worried for matlab coz i didn't know everything, couldn't understand it, and just frustrated with myself. But you were so very patient with me.

you did not show a slightest bit of impatience towards me.

Instead, you explain it to me over and over again, step by step, with utmost patience and love, teaching me from scratch. And you had fever that day. Still, you spent the entire day, till past midnite, accompanying me while i study matlab...until i was done with all the lecture notes. You even spent a few solid hours, reading my matlab textbook and notes, to teach me. You learnt an entire new module just to help me. And you were of great help. You went to search the internet for extra notes, printed them out for me, searched for some test questions, gave them to me and did it with me. You explain every single thing i didn't understand about matlab, until i understood. From 3pm till 12.30am...you were there every single minute. Many times i felt so tired and wanted to give up, but u were there constantly encouraging me and telling me i am almost there...and i can do it.

you reminded me not to compare with others, and it was certainly a good reminder. thank you...

because i was selfish and wanted you to be with me, you didn't manage to do your maths tutorial...sigh, i'm sorry.

the entire week, i was so busy with work, but yet, you understood it all, and just be with me.

today, you woke up and called me straight away, afraid that i overslept for my matlab test. Called me and prayed for my test before i entered the lt...and fetched me right after my matlab test.

you told me that you're willing to give up your s/u and give it all to me. you told me that you're willing to give up all your grades just for me...you told me you're willing to give up all your time just for me...

and

every single prayer you made, there was me. you remembered me in your prayer.

i can't say how much you've sacrificed and done for me coz its just too much. and i'm just so very thankful for you. truly, i thank God for you.

you yourself have much work to do, but you never once complained it to me...but just encourage me all the time, to the extent of helping me to plan my time so i can finish.

you're just too wonderful...and i love you so.

thank you for everything you've done for me...truly, i dun deserve this.

i just wanna say i'm really touched by every single thing you've done for me...everything you did out of love. thank you dear. i wanna be there for you too and you know i'm always there.. =)

-love you..-