i'm back...

It's been a long time since i last blogged. Well, i was fasting from non-nus and email websites and 1 meal fast for the past 10 days...but perhaps, i fasted for the wrong reasons and somehow, it's disappointing when i reflect upon myself again and again. Guess i was more of telling myself that i could do it than depending on God and being more receptive on my senses for Him.

sigh what can i say...disappointed as i am, ashamed as i am, i know God's unfailing love is always there. That He never forsakes me and He hears my cries.

i need a spiritual revival.

it dawned on me now that i really am nothing. a person with countless flaws, who always blames herself and puts herself down with her imperfection.

maybe God should just take everything away from me right now so whatever i have left is just God's love..and then i know how empty it is not to have His love.

a struggle within.

be strong.

be with me. i need you.