Zero to Eternity

new bloggy

2007-05-10T11:49:00.000-07:00

hey people! we've done up our joint blog! after soo many hours! its quite fun doing it together haha...pls visit and give us comments!

Here's the link!
http://matthiasanddavina.blogspot.com/

more updates!

2007-05-10T07:18:00.000-07:00

okie for some updates! yesterday i went to dear's house to cook lunch for him. went to clementi's NTUC and just grab whatever i need and decided to cook jap curry with beef stew for him! hehe! as some of u may already know, i don't know how to cook, or rather, put it more accurately, i've never really cooked a meal! so i wanted to give it a try and do something for my dear.... so i just gave it a shot!!

wahaha i just anyhow whack...coz its not my kitchen, i needed some help from dear to tell me where his spices are etc. and thanks dear for helping me peel potatoes! coz i dunno how to peel using knive haha. i anyhow just aga aga marinated the beef cubes with whatever i have...boiled the potatoes..etc etc. it was really an experience...

Ingredients used:
2 potatoes
1 tomato
1 red pepper
onion
garlic
beef cubes
jap curry spices
olive oil
some additional spices to marinate
soya sauce
salt
carrots
wine
pepper
rice

and it turned out really nice! i had to stir fry the beef first! i did it 90% myself! right dear! hehe and whether it turned out nice or not...heh heh. dear! u gotta tell them! :) i found it quite nice hehehe especially for my first time! but the rice was super soggy though, added too much water. that was a big mistake but the rest turned out okay! =) i had a great time...and more importantly, this dish is specially for dear...next time will have more and more home cooked meals! =) hee love u!

see the curry! =)

as for today! i went to meet yiling and jia min with xl to treat them lunch for their belated birthdays! @ long john silver...heez. seems like it has become a tradition to go there....oh wells! its nice catching up with them

after which i went to meet mei ling with xin ling to sing k box @ marina! =)
sang from 2-7pm. very shiok. haha. i sang almost all that i wanted to sing..sing till i tired already...hahaha. i sang a lot a lot! happy! but was missing dear...heez. can't wait for k box with guitar dearies next sat! wah everyweek k box once...quite tiring actually heez! but its the company thats fun! this's us!

after k box, we went to yoshinoya for dinner...and we had a 1 hour conversation... in general, we talked about marriage, bgr and stuff like that.

1. 'zhi zuo' --> also means stubborness in lay man's term

mei ling was talking about how she was really stubborn in the past, in the sense that if she really wants something, she must get it. and then she said this...after so many years...all these stubborness has only given her one thing - 'high blood pressure'. now, she has to eat medicine every morning because of it....and she was telling us that we should learn to let go, and not hold on to things so tightly...must be able to live openly and stuff like that.

i agree that we should let go of certain things...but to me, as a christian, it's important to really be able to let go of things that are wordly. For example, holding on to money, career, grades, material possessions, anger, grudges etc etc... these will not bring us to heaven. Rather, we should hold on to love, Godly relationships, faith, and most imporatntly, God's word. Today, i was thinking about 'forgive & forget'. I've come across people who hold on to grudges, just being unwilling to forgive someone no matter what...perhaps this someone has been hurt by a friend or loved one in a certain way....but Jesus said on the day of His crusification, 'Father, forgive them for they do not know what they're doing'. Even to the point of death, He forgave those who hurt them....for me, i always encourage people to let go of grudges and forgive...because to me, by holding on to grudges, the person who is most hurt is yourself...for you've chosen not to let yourself go...it becomes a burden in your heart and it'll just makes one lose the trust in all relationships, not just friendships.

2. Marriage & BGR

We were talking about different views of marriage and bgr...and amongst us, there were differing thoughts about it. One of them talked about how it is troublesome to get into a relationship and sometimes its just not worth it for a woman coz when your bf is less capable than u, u just can't gain anything out of it..so wads the point? Another said that by being in a relationship, you would be able to have that someone to talk to..sometimes being alone is very tiring coz u can't share all your thoughts..and so, it is better to have someone to talk to, but to that someone, she believes that the couple should not share money..they should spend their money separtely....as for marriage, it's troublesome and its different being married and being a dating couple...somehow, marriage will change the couple's character and personality...eg, when u get married, your wife changes from a quiet, peaceful lady to a fierce, domineering wife...

my take is that...when u get into a relationship, its not about getting what you want out of it..its not about expectations..it's not about what u can gain out of it. Neither is it about reciprocal love or for the sake of wanting to be loved...rather, it's about God's plan for you. The one that is meant for you, as your soulmate, is the right one for you. To me, a relationship is something that allows you and your partner to experience God's love together...to walk in this Christian journey together, as one body in Christ...true love comes from God. For without Him, there's no love..and the greatest of all is Jesus's sacrificial love...that He gave His only son to die on the cross for us all. Often, as humans, we expect something out of a relationship...but really, we shouldn't expect anything out of it...but rather, we should do everything out of love for that one person, without expecting anything in return...that's true love. Doing everything out of love, for your soulmate, and for God...believing in Him, trusting in Him that He will provide for this relationship. Marriage is a commitment..it's not troublesome...rather, it's something so special, so unique...a bond not to be broken...and when you build God's family, spreading His word to the next generation, it's just something so wonderful...to see your child fulfilling God's glory and purpose. =) thats just my take in this matter....well, many thoughts went through my mind today..just had to pend it down. Different ppl have different thoughts...i'm not saying i'm right, neither am i saying others are wrong...but well, thats just my perspective about some issues! =)

ok, enough said! such a long post! anyway dear set up a combined blog! when its ready i'll put the link here! hmm still deciding whether i should continue with this personal blog! will miss it though! heez

tmr gotta go back sch for booth duty (4 hours! my gosh!) followed by tim's bday party! tim's dear's friend...heez. =) ohh and i gotta start doing my prayer pointers since i'm prayer i/c for my misison trip! =)

0204 class dinner @ vivo city MARCHE!

2007-05-06T05:52:00.000-07:00

ooh..i'm having fun with picasa! oh well! i forgot to update that my jc class had chalet on last friday and saturday but i only went for the dinner yesterday. it was @ vivo city marche. the food was okay la..but what was nice is that our 2 beloved F Maths teachers went! Mrs Kay and Mrs Leong! =) Mrs Kay was our civics tutor, which is like our 'form teacher' i love them so much!

it was nice to get together again after a year or so which has been so long! =) especially jia min, shin fei and all..miss them! a pity some of them cldn't make it..and even more pity the other teachers whom we invited couldn't make it too!

mrs kay and mrs leong were so cute! mrs leong played the 'wink' murderer with us and she actually uses probability to find the murderer without seeing who wink...zai haha. very professional detective haha! and we played air hocket @ vivo arcade with them! mrs kay and mrs leong were so cute! hahaha..they first time play! and not bad! impressed! and they played pool! hahahha. mrs kay vs mrs leong. super funny! both of them dunno how to play..it was mrs leong's first time but my oh my! she's SUPER GOOD! 100 times better than me la! mrs kay not that good coz her hand not so stable...but very funny...she was like 'must see the impact and the angle ah...' hahahhaa. fmaths mechanics. those were the days..they are the best teachers. really. our class love them so much.

they took so many photos with us too! =) and mrs kay was so nice to drive me home! i'm gonna miss them!!

our 5 mths anni @ ESCAPE theme park!

2007-05-06T05:24:00.000-07:00

happy 5 mths dear! =) more to come!

here's us at ESCAPE theme park! thank God there's no rain today even though it was really really sweltering hot! which got us quite tired after around 2pm. haha. dear managed to change some petrol points for escape theme park entry yay =) thank you dear for finally bringing me here! haha. i always wanted to go escape coz i've NEVER been there!

hmmm i was really excited and told myself i'm gonna sit many many rides! but haha i chickened out when i saw the 'inverter' ride..but i was 'persuaded' by dear to sit that. my gosh. i never wanna sit that again. total 360 degrees turn..i was screaming like some mad woman. and while screaming, i kept saying 'i dun wanna sit this!' haha. i kept my eyes shut all the way...but dear kept his eyes open througout. and i got so dizzy after sitting that! but the rest of the rides i'm quite okay right! haha..although dear took a super much big effort to 'persuade' me to do the 'go kart' ride..coz the slope was quite steep and i was afraid i would bang the motor car somehow. somemore the advance one i have to do it alone! at least the beginner's one can sit 2 person. haha. but when i finally did it...i wanted to do it again! very fun! haha. i like i like. but i think i'm relaly a reckless driver..i just keep accelerating haha. The 'wet and wild' ride was nice! i like the 15 metres drop...i sat in front and poor dear got his whole shirt wet. haha

There weren't many rides but then it was quite worth it la since we only paid for lunch effectively. =) after playing most of the rides, we headed on to east coast to drink coconut and then we were too tired to continue and thus...home sweet home! i slept for almost 2 hours straight haha.

i had a great day! thanks dear! =)

ooh and i'm having a pimple break out now. i think its because i used the wrong pimple cream..and now it seems like i'm having achne the whole face! my skin has never been this bad! i'm so sad!! =( i hope the pimples go away sooon! i dun like pimples! *pouts*

bobo & bibi again! =)

2007-05-06T05:13:00.000-07:00

Just an update, bobo & bibi has been growing very healthily. just a few days back, we decided to upgrade their house and make it more vibrant, and thus, we bought a little burrow/ cottage rather for them to sleep in there...they like to cover themselves with hay and cotton so we can't peep and see them while they sleep! haha. so cute! and we also bought a plastic ball to put them inside so they can just roll and roll all over the place without us losing sight of them! here's more pictues of them with me and dear!

just yesterday, when i was in dear's house...we were playing with bobo & bibi. we let them run around on the table and let them free on dear's bed...lo and behold! haha we were carrying them halfway...when dear saw bobo/bibi's shit suspended on their backside...which was going to drop any minute on his pillow! we were franctic! and when i lifted the other hamster up on the pillow...she has already shitted! one black drop on dear's pillow! haha we rushed for tissue and the whole scene was hilarious! dear faster put back the other hamster with the suspended shit which was just in time for her to shit in the cage! hahahha. poor darling! =)

oh! and dear bought some nuts for them yesterday coz he wantde to experiment which nuts they like best! apparently! they don't really like the food we bought from the pet shop...so dear have been giving them all sorts of nuts to see which one they like best! dear said they like walnut best...they like hazelnut too! what an expensive taste haha. our hamsters seem to go for high class food. and dear is gonna make them so fat! haha. =)

cousin's wedding a few mths back!

2007-05-06T05:05:00.000-07:00

heez my cousin just sent me the wedding photos! so having explored picasa, and finally taught by dear how to make a collage, i decided to experiment it on my own! =)

spiderman 3!

2007-05-02T08:58:00.000-07:00

Today was the last day of dear's exam. I went to school early to wait for him while he finishes his last paper for the semester. =) and i did my quiet time while waiting...started on this christian book called 'why did God allow suffering' but didn't read much coz i felt sleepy haha. but thank God it went quite well for him =)

After that, we went to my pgp room to pack up my stuff coz i'm not staying there anymore...so i had to remove all my stuff and bring it back home. thanks dear for helping me out...then we headed to holland v for lunch. =)

right after lunch, i went to dear's house to play with bobo & bibi and watched this christian dvd, 'A vow to cherish'. Really sweet and meaningful...

Bibi and Bobo were really cute! i dare to play and touch with them already! are u proud of me dear! hahaha...they're so adorable...see i took so many videos and pictures! more to come! bobo is the darker hamster...she has a darker stripe of fur on the centre of her body. =) i saw them snuggling up their cotton wool for bed, saw them eat, drink, cuddle with each other to sleep, play with each other, bathe in the bathing powder...haha really cute and interesting!

look! that's dear's finger...this is the second storey of their humble abode. they had to climb up this spiral 'staircase' for them to reach the second level..lots of cotton for them there. they like it! they always take a little bit then bring it back down to the first floor and sleep on it. hahaha! so so so cute! the corn there is to suck up all their urine...haha. thats bobo..the more happening hamster who runs arnd more. bibi, like me, is always sleeping...haha.

After watching the dvd and playing with our hamsters, we headed to vivo to watch spidey. before that we shopped a little, then went to Toys'r'us! ( i dunno how to spell! sorry haha)

heard alvin & Tq, zz & sb, and me & dear watching spidey 3 today. so qiao. somemore alvin & tq watched at vivo like us too! just diff timing...zz, where did u 2 go and watch haha! dun tell me vivo!

Anyway, we had great fun at toys'r'us...took pictures somremore. ok...dun laugh. this branch very big leh! i'm quite amused...haha. quite interesting! so many many toys! some of them quite fun to play with haha. see!

haha this giraffe very cute. i had to ask dear to take a picture with it. =) so cute isn't it!

thomas the train! is he thomas? haha i think so! anyway, i used to watch this cartoon. so this is me and mr. thomas

my dear playing with the otopus toy! its not childish k. its really quite fun...u can press the tentacles then it will play the sound of a note..so there's like 1 octave...and i made 'twinkle twinkle little star' with it. haha cute toy!

when we came to this section, dear was like...'hey! its your territory!' haha barbie...i used to play with them so often. right jess? got the supermarket one somemore. haha. its so pink. haha. (fyi, i dun play them anymore. in case anyone wonders)

and look at this! there's this section, when i look up the ceiling..its space! its relaly so pretty! still got the astronaut hanging up there..and the stars can glimmer one! very very nice! must go visit this branch! haha.

When time is up, it was spidey 3!

spiderman 3 is really quite good. ok i hafta confess i cried again. at the end..coz it was so touching! i didn't cry as much compared to 200 pounds beauty...but then i think i'm the only one there who cried for spidey. haha. embarrassed. i easily touched ma. spiderman 3 is not just about the action, thriller and all...it contains a whole lot of meaning and messages that we can learn from. It ranges all the way from friendships, to love, to sacrifice, good vs evil, etc etc. so many many things we can learn from. Look at harry and peter parker...they may have gone through arguments, fights, even life and death situations, but at the end of it all...through misunderstandings...they realised the value of their friendship and helped each other through the major crisis...and peter parker said 'best friend' to harry. its really so sweet...many times my friends ask me the question, who is not nice to you? and i always reply...everyone is nice in some way or another...i kinda believe, that everyone is nice just in different ways..they may have evil thoughts, evil intentions at some point time in their lives, but in all, i know that conscience is always there.. isn't it? hmm. maybe i'm naive. haha

ok, enough said...i had a great day =) i miss dear, bobo & bibi!

and min hwee, sandra, yuting etc etc. dun abandon me! hahaha. and min hwee...stop making me jealous! =)

jess...i'm always with u....no matter how difficult a situation may be, i'm here for u. have faith, and God will provide. always praying for u. love u!

tmr acqua outing and dear's eve chalet bbq.

bobo & bibi

2007-05-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

A big welcome to bobo and bibi to our lives! =)

2007-05-01T06:28:00.000-07:00

Today was really fun!

I went out with dear to watch this movie called '200 pounds beauty' at the new cathay! it was really touching and quite funny also. I feel that although this movie, simply put, it's 'ugly duckling turned into swan', but it carries a lot of message on superficiality and how practical the world is. You don't have the looks, you don't get to be a singer...you're fat and ugly, all you can do is to be a backup singer..how sad to know how this world functions. oh well! but anyhow, the female lead relaly really chio! i was like...'i wanna have her height. i wanna have her legs. i wanna have her looks' hahahha! but i'm thankful to God for who i am ...so that was just a side note! OH! and i cried during the movie. so touching! hahaha...so touching when she confessed that she went through plastic surgery....anyway! its a relaly good korean movie. GO CATCH IT! =)

Oh! before movie, dear brought me to eat lunch at 'sushi tei' at paragon. RELALY REALLY GOOD!!! i was like a pig. eat and eat. but eatting is happy. haha. thank you dear... =) thank you for those free vouchers!

us! at the restaurant!

another pic of us! haha dear...what do u wanna say?!

the seafood mini steam boat.

terriyaki chicken!

gosh. i really look like a pig. zz...you can call me 'zhu mei' already. In all, we had this chicken, the steam boat, 3-4 plates of sushi and tofu! did i miss out any? anyway we were bloated! but happy!

Then we headed to Plaza Sing to shop...dear bought a gift for his mom for mother's day... then we went to simei! and guessed what?!

WE BOUGHT 2 HAMSTERS! our pets! Both females!

Introducing.....

BOBO & BIBI!

This is BIBI! which represents me! haha...the whiter one...i think she eats more and sleeps more too! haha

And this is BOBO! which represents dear! haha

look at them in the cage!!

see that roller thing there? it keeps going there and run and run...i feel super lazy compared to this hamster. maybe they will give me motivation to run! ahahha

and this is the beautiful cage that we bought! wah, still bought food, the corn for them as base, the water thing for them to drink....etc etc.

BUT!

we're so happy =) they're like part of us now =) will take good care of them! they gonna bring so much joy to us!

dear..thanks for the hamsters....so sweet of you...u bought them for me. (i also and will pay part of it haha)..but anyhow, dear..thanks for wanting to buy them for me to destress me when i'm stressed..to cheer me up when i'm sad. Thank you for the thought...and thank you for today! you always make my day! =) yay! i get to play with bobo and bibi tmr! dear's taking care of them...how sweet =) he'll do a great job! and i better start being more courageous and start carrying them...i still quite scared, only dare to stroke and watch them and ....talk to them! haha. =) love you dear! can't wait for spidey tmr! =)

welcome bobo and bibi!

yabadabadoo! exams over oredi! yippe yippee!

2007-04-30T06:49:00.000-07:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exams are over!! -relieved-

Anyway, my last post was a pre-exam post, and thus, to end of nicely, here's a post exam post to briefly talk about the experience i went through.

Before i begin, my dear asked me to advertise for 'xing wang's mango desert'. haha...my darling brought me to siglap xing wang's restaurant for dinner right after my horrendous matlab paper last friday. hee so sweet =) and we had such a feast! ok here's what happened...we ordered a plate of noodles, and some glutinous rice which were quite nice...then a plate of fried won tan! the thing is the picture on the menu showed really really big won tan and i'm such a big eater..was so hungry and wanted to eat that. and it ended up really really really tiny! like 10 times smaller the size. -.- so being hungry still, i looked at the desert...the mango desert look so nice...it looks huge but i thought since this restaurant uses picture to bluff the customers, shouldn't be that big...

LOOK AT THE PRODUCT!

ITS HUGGGEEEEE! we looked at each other, stunned. it was so huge i didn't know how to start...haha. anyway we finished more than half. haha. look at my dear destroying the mountain! we even made ice carvings on it haha!

okie...anyway back to the exams. it was so horrible. made me super stressed! its traumatic haha having so much to study...and facing really horrible paper which made me leave more than 30 marks blank. BAH. i just pray and cross fingers God will pull me through this exam. i dun wanna retake ahhh. hee...but its over now! and i'm a happy lil gal!

here are some pictures of us during the mugging spree in NUS Central Library. This is what i do when i'm bored and tired of studying...photo whoring!! hur hur... *grin*

me and dearest biting our pens...

my dearest concentrating..hahaha...

uhh i wasn't concentrating...i was posing. haha

oh! and u gotta look at my maths helpsheet! MA 1506! i had to take picture for rememberance! its full to the brim...no space for more formulas haha.

madness.

and my darling and guitar dearies were so sweet. thanks sandra for the motivational postcard! really sweeet! and i hope u all like the clips and the little note i wrote! yuting! didn't see u at the lib that day... or else i cld have passed u one that day too! =)

and from my dear:

so very sweet... =) love u!

thakns sandra! the card is so me! haha (quoting from min hwee and my darling..i look like that little creature)

ok enough of photos!

To my friends (Jess, bitsies, min hwee, guo yi, etc etc...):

thank you all for your encouragements...all the smses, msn chats...really mean so much. when i'm stressed, you all msg me to tell me to keep going...min hwee, thanks for all the good luck msges..sorry if i replied so late! thank you for asking me to jia you...thank you all! i love all of you! =) sandra! i owe u banana split! remind me ah! lets go for k box soon k! i miss it!...yuting ah! when u start work! leave some time for us k haha...or use the money u earn to treat us...wahahhaha. dun do so much shopping! :P

To my darling:

dear..you've been there for me throughout my entire exams...through thick and thin. You've been there, never leaving me alone.

When i'm stressed and u know i'm stressed, you call me and sent me smses to encourage me all the way...

When i'm tired and feeling sleepy, you'ld be my energizer fishy and bunny, taking silly pictures of yourself and send me to make me laugh....

when i'm breaking down and feeling so demoralised, you prayed for me over the phone, and reminded me of God's love...

when i'm getting frustrated, you did not get irritated..instead you calm me down..

when i'm feeling nervous, you came to hug me and made me calm...

when i'm feeling unconfident, you told me that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...

above all, every single day, every single hour, every single moment, you told me....

i love you.

and i'm always with you.

dear, you really mean the world to me. i know you've been there for me more than i've been there for you througout these exams. i made you sad coz it seemed my faith disappeared...i was in total frenzy and forgot about God's presence...but you brought me back, you brought me back to God. you reminded me of His love. Dear, if you haven't realised, you're the bestest boyfriend and soulmate in my heart. the one and only....thank you dear for all that you've done. I too, wanna do all that i can for you...i truly, thank God for you.

Thanks darling for every single thing that you've done out of love.

I love you. =)

Emmanuel - God with us.

2007-04-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

This post will be entirely dedicated for my dearest and all my friends who are currently going through a difficult and stressful period, for the exams are near...

I understand fully how it feels when there's only like less than 1 week left for some of us before the exam battle begins.

stress?

of course i feel the stress and i understand the plight many of my friends are going through now.

for me, revision has been bad. time passes quite quickly everyday and i could barely do much in a day. especially when my body seems to be wanting to catch up on sleep..its really hard when i'm tired and yet wanting to try to stay awake to read more but cant. and then waking up the next day to my dismay that i've one day less to study and i'm doomed.

so...darling and my dear friends...don't worry ok. If you're feeling the above, u're not alone. I'm with u and God is with u. and i'm not lying here =)

Darling -
I know that EG1109 & MA1506 are killing you. They are, to you, your killer modules. and i fully understand what it is to practise so much yet always getting it wrong coz u just can't see it or due to carelessness. I know you're afraid to fail...but dearest, just remember to do your best and leave the rest to God ya? I'm with u, whether u pass or fail...we can fail in everything but let us not fail God. God gave us talent in different areas...there are some areas we're bound to struggle with but let us not be dismayed. God did not promise us to have a smooth life, but He promised us eternity and promised us that He'll bring us through all struggles. With faith, hope and love, you'll be fine k. I'm holding your hand and God is carrying you...you'll do fine honey..dont worry k! =) hugs. i love u!

Sandra-
my beloved bitsie_rou-song, i know things are going hard for you. You're getting uptight, worried, stressed out ..to the point of breaking down. I know soci is probably not your flair and you're struggling with it. Dont' worry ok! remember what you always tell me...God will make a way and do not fear coz God is with u.. i know its easier said than done...but bitsie, God has promised to guide us through every step along the way. We need to have faith and confidence in the Lord. You're not alone...do not fear, do not fret. I'm with u, and whether good or bad results, remember it won't grant us entry to heaven. It's not the grades, but your love for God. Have faith and be strong for God ok! Don't let the devil topple your faith! you can do it bitsie! i'm supporting u through it all =) jia you k! gambatte!

Yuting
hey my bitsie who MIA for soooooo long! dunno how many donkey years! haha...miss you gal! we all miss you! but we all understand the immense amount of stress you've been going through. Glad all your assignments are completed bitsie! u can relax now but not too much k...also must focus on exams! :) you're the strongest amongst us...can sleep so little....yet accomplish lots of things! but just wanna encourage u to keep going k. if u're tired or stressed, just remember you've friends around u to support you and be with u..and i'm one of them k! thou we had little chances to meet up and cathc up, we stil support each other and we'll catch up during hols ya! =) jia you jia you! its soon gonna be over!

Min Hwee
darling! reading from ur blog, u having troubles with ur organic chem ya? do not fret k...would a mindmap help? coz it helped me for organic chem during jc haha. i know you also very busy, got lots of things to memorise since u're in chemistry. brain feels like exploding....but everytime u feel like exploding..just remember the race is soon to be over k. just try ur best...don't push urself too hard. still must take care of ur health k! you can do it! if u feeling super stressed, just know that we are all hear for u. and we'll run this race together till the end..then we can go celebrate! look forward to after exams! hee hee! gambatte girl!

to guo yi, zhi zhong, nick, fred, yung chuan, hazel, xinling and the rest of acqua ...perhaps most of you don't have my blog or dont' read my blog...but just wanna say i know chem eng is really stressful. I haven't touched my maths...and my CN is killing me big time. heh! dun talk about cm or matlab! everything is killing me hahaha. but all of us in the same boat...we'll all help each other along the way yea...if u all dunno something...i can try to help. =) we'll all graduate together one day...let's just strive out best and get this over and done with yea? and hopefully we can forget all about clayperons, raoult, gibbs, malthus, henry and watever not. heh! jia you ppl!!

to end off before i cont mugging, just wanna encourage all of us that God is working..God is watching us from above. Do not study for competition, do not study for fame, but study for God ya...for His glory. That watever results we get, give thanks for all that we have for God has His purpose for everything, and His plans are always pleasing and perfect. He is our redeemer, our savoiur. He will never forsake us. When you're weary, ask Him for strength. When you're stressed, lay all your budens at the foot of the cross and He will carry them for u.

I probably won't blog till exams are over...so just wanna wish all of you good luck and all the best! God bless to all of you...and remember, you're not alone. love ya all! take care!! :)

p.s. jess dearie...do not worry about your interview tmr! you will do fine! i'll be keeping u in prayer..always am =) trust in God ok and go in with full confidence knowing that God will provide. He's holding your hand and He will guide u through it. Have faith and thank God for everything. Shuould u get the job, do remember to spread God's love to the market place u're placed at...and i pray you'll be the salt and light of this world. =) take care dearie..will definitely catch up with u after my exams! sorry i've been so caught up with sch, and spending so little time with u all this while! just wanna say i love you and i'm always with u no matter how far we're physically! take care and God bless my bestest friend =) hugs!

signing off,
davina

-love you darling- with you always...

M.A.D.

2007-04-08T04:19:00.000-07:00

M.A.D.

MATTHIAS & DAVINA

M.A.D.LY IN LOVE

This is absolutely random.

It just came into my mind.

Though it's a little kinda cheesy

But I thought it was cool.

Don't you think so darling?

love you dear..

And yes,

i'm mad from studying.

Not that i've done much.

But going MAD

knowing there's tons to do.

Blessed Easter to all!

2007-04-07T21:06:00.000-07:00

GOD IS RISEN! HE IS RISEN INDEED!!

Today during Easter service, my heart was not focused on worshipping God. I was distracted by what's happening around me. Distracted by the dance ministry, distracted by the music players...and distracted by all the workload recurring in my mind. But, as i look at the people around me, people of all age group, young and old, worshipping God..singing praises from within. And i was touched. There was a sense of joy knowing that this is God's family. And I'm part of this family. And you can be part of God's family too. As long as you believe...

Darling, I'm sorry for yesterday. All my whines, growls, frustration, tears and whatever not. I was a monster! Sorry for being so irritating... I was stressed up and had so much trouble with my CM and MATLAB. I was just lousy...i spent a whole 5 hours plus trying to debug coz i just wanna use ODE. How foolish. And i had to disturb so many people coz i just felt so helpless, now knowing why it just simply can't run. Thanks to all to help me...Dearest, Jian liang, wei jian, Zhi Zhong etc etc. gosh, i'm sorry i disturbed so many people. =( but really appreciate all of your help. Thanks to Wei Jian for telling me to use the save and load function. And really, even though i was such a monster, i just wanna really really thank my dear for being so patient, who even though was so stressed with his uncompleted work and revision, patiently and willingly took out time to help me look at my program and try to debug for me. I felt so bad. I'm sorry dear for being such a monster.

dear, i know that it's not about who helping who, but rather, its us helping each other out of love. I just wanna say that I love you for who you are and appreciate every single thing that you've done for me. And i too, would be more than willing to help you in any way. And i'll encourage you and be with you...in times of stress, sadness, happiness, frustration, worries, I WILL BE THERE....for you. And dear, you're not a useless boyfriend and i'm not a useless girlfriend either. God wouldn't make useless children, would He? He has a purpose for each one of us and we'll work and do His glory...We'll be His instruments. Our love will be a testimony...we're not useless. Lets try to stop blaming ourselves anymore k. I'll try dear =) Let's be strong and united in Christ as one body...and together, we'll run this race with God. What foundation can be stronger than God? =)

I know the next few weeks are gonna be so stressful and so often, we would want each other's attention..yet we need to focus on our books too. It would be hard but let us not expect anything from each other, but just give what we can and love each other wholeheartedly; that we'll be there for each other in times of need and in times of joy. We'll stand firm and not shake. Every struggle or tear that we go through or shed..we grow..and we grow with God and through God.

No matter how strong the storm is...we'll stand by each other, holding firm to God's love.

dear, you can do it ok...we'll make it to the mark. Step by step...i'll be your destresser, i'll be your comfort, i'll be your encourager, i'll be your lover. And God will see us through all this. no matter how well or how bad u do darling, i'll love you for who you are...we'll just do our best, and leave the rest to Him. He will provide...

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And i write all this because i love you....

-Hugs-

He died to wash away our sins

2007-04-06T01:16:00.000-07:00

"He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy."
Colossians 1:17-18

It's Good Friday today. The sermon during message today made me ponder about how unworthy I am. I am nothing, yet He was nailed on the cross, made to carry the cross, put on the crown of thorns, was sneered and mocked at, and CHOSE to die on the cross for US. Are we worthy of such love? So sacrificial, so magnificent. God's grace unto us...yet so many of us do not appreciate it and treat it cheaply. This world, was originally perfect, as written in Genesis yet look at it today. Our sins have caused the imperfection in this world. It's not Adam nor Eve. Should we be existent 2000 years ago, we would not have been better than Adam and Eve. In fact, I would probably have been worse. God's everlasting love and promise has been given to us, yet we so often disappoint Him time and time again. I wonder how many times our Father above has cried because of us. How sad it is for us to make Him tear.

But God is good. He forgives us. He's a gracious and loving God, who forgives the sins of many. How great it is to have such a magestic Father, that He gave His only Son to die on the cross for us. How great thou art! Let us sing praises and give thanks to God...repent and turn back to Him. He longs for us to gather in His name and sing of His glory. Wouldn't it be nice to see the big Father up there smile at us? How warm that is.

Thank You God for everything and anything. You're indeed above all things. Nothing is more powerful or better than you. Nothing in this world can be compared to You.

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As exams are nearing, revision is so tight. And so many of us still have to rush through our tutorials and assignments, i just wanna tell my friends and my dear that i'll be praying for all of you.

Dear, Sandra, Min Hwee, Yuting, Hui Lin, Min Joo, Guo Yi, Acquarians, Xin Ling, Hazel, etc etc...

Jess...will pray for journey mercy as you return to Singapore in a few days time... hope you having a great time in Taiwan =)

-You all will be in my prayers-

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30

Do not fret! Just trust in Him and He will provide.

Take care friends =) love you all...

miss you and love you darling =)

we'll run the race together..

A verse a day keeps the devil away =)

2007-04-02T02:14:00.000-07:00

Verse for the day:

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10

my dear is sleeping beside me in the library now... =) hee hee.

the time for revision has come. It's time to go full steam for the battle.

May God grant all of us strength, endurance and perseverance to fight through this battle. With Him on our side, there's nothing impossible we cannot do. =)

sweet dreams dear...

where's sandra & min joo & min hwee when i'm in the library?

hmmmm...
i'm on the 5th floor! =)

Be it unto me

2007-03-31T23:47:00.000-07:00

Be It Unto Me
by Don Moen

Chorus:
Be it unto me
According to your Word
According to your promises
I can stand secure
Carve upon my heart
The truth that sets me free
According to your Word O Lord
Be it unto me

Verse 1:
You promised your word will deliver
Lord, we believe it's true
You promised us joy like a river
Lord we receive it from you
These things you have spoken
And you're bringing to pass
This world's disappearing
But your word will last

Chorus

Verse 2:
You promised to carry our sorrows
Lord, we believe it's true
You promised unending tomorrows
Lord we receive them from you
You'll be our Provider
In Your word it's revealed
By the strifes that You bore
Lord We have been healed

Chorus

"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples"
John 15:7-8

missing you...

2007-03-29T11:01:00.000-07:00

It's 2.02am now...

we parted just one hour ago but i'm already missing u so badly...

you'd probably in dreamland right now... and i'll join u soon in new zealand. =)

To you my dearest:

i love you.

hugs =) =)

sweet dreams darling..

renewed by God's grace

2007-03-25T21:35:00.000-07:00

I'm standing up again.

Thank you friends for prayers. Do continue to pray for us. Really appreciate it. =)

It's time to focus.
It's time to set down to work.
5 more weeks and the race will be over.

By God's grace, we'll reach the finishing line.

hurt

2007-03-25T02:14:00.000-07:00

i don't understand why things turned out this way...

my mind is in a whirl.

why does the definition of love differs from people to people?

is it that hard to understand what true love is?

i'm tired.
i'm hurt.

i've had enough of crying.

perhaps this's a test of faith.
yet its so hard to pass this test.

God, give me strength...
God, heal my wound...

but in everything, i know that they did what they did out of love and concern for me...and ultimately, i still thank God for them. And i thank God for my dear.

God, move the mountains...

2007-03-24T19:27:00.000-07:00

In the bible, it was said that a faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains...

At this point of my life, when struggles come crashing on me...the only hope is in the Lord. Vulnerable, weak, tired are what i feel physically and mentally right now...but spiritually, i shall stay strong. It really isnt easy esp when exams are drawing near and i'm already struggling to keep afloat with all the stress in school work. I'm heavily burdened with my own personal struggles and one that just poured on me yesterday. Yet, i know that we can lay our burdens at the foot of the cross and God will take it for us.

Dear, it's gonna be a tough period for us. As i cry yesterday, feeling desperate, i am just really thankful for your assurance that no matter what, you'll always be with me. And you'll always love me...and i too, will always love you. We'll prove our love and stand firm with the love of God. For God is the strongest foundation anyone could have...no matter how strong the storm may be, we'll hold on to this strong foundation we have and tide through it.

At this point in my life, where i feel so low and down, i just want to ask my friends to pray for me and my dear...to pray for strength and God to move all these obstacles. And when 2 or 3 are gathered in the name of the Lord, our Father will definitely hear our prayers...

i'm heavily stressed and depressed...but the joy of the Lord is with me, now and forever.

dear, i love you...

A day of being a bridesmaid.

2007-03-18T17:40:00.000-07:00

Just a short update.

Yesterday was my cousin Janice's Wedding. My very first cousin to get married and i had the opportunity to be the bridesmaid. gosh. it was tiring. I never expected myself to feel that tired. Having to wake up at 8.30am in the morning and get dressed, put on make up, let my maid do up my hair, wear contacts, wear jewellery, etc etc and set off to the bride's house. There, i had the chance to visit her room and see the make-up artist do her make up and hair. kinda cool. How the tiara was put on, the veil, and when she wore the super gorgeous gown, wow. the gown really pretty! Being the bridesmaid, when the groom came, i had to go to the gate and prevent him from entering. Thus, i had to ask several questions and when answered wrongly, he has to do punishments! but luckily, he got brothers to help. Well, since they answered most of them wrongly, cruel me went to make them do star jumps, push ups in their suits. heee heee. And they had to sing a song...and they sang twinkle twinkle little star..hur so funny coz some of them dun even know how to sing. bad me. haha. The groom had to drink this horrible drink after that and we demanded $$$. wahaha. Then we finally let him in and he entered the bride's room. so sweeet. * beams*

throughout the day, i had to follow the bride for tea ceremony for both sides. And then the solemnization ceremony and the wedding dinner. Everywhere she goes with that gown, i had to tag along behind and carry the gown. its quite ma fan actually. but well oh well! it's actually quite fun and an eye opener. first time i witness the whole wedding like this! now i know how a traditional wedding is supposed to be. hee hee hee.

anyway! just wanna wish my cousin janice and her hubby Terrence a very blissful marriage! They're going to Japan for honeymoon then migrate to melbourne. how envious! i'm still stuck here in nus haha. Hope they 'zao sheng gui zi'! then i'll have niece/ nephew already. but i dun wanna be auntie haha. May their love be everlasting always!

pictures!

my night dresss..

my hairdo

the bride

me at my house car porch.

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and on saturday, i was happy that dear went for my cell with me. =) it was meaningful learning about unhurried prayer. Then dear invited me to his brother's birthday dinner. It was seafood buffet. really goood. hope your parents and brother like the presents. we both felt so homely that night =) Thank you dear for making me feel at home. hugs.

miss euu! see ya in a while! =)

-not a short update after all heez-

*time to kick my butt and get myself do some work after a super slack weekend!!

MUCHIE MONKEYS WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS

2007-03-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

hee!

FINALLY!

I MANAGED TO MEET UP WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS! =)

i know its been so long since i met all of you...my fault. my bad! i've been busy busy! =) but me really happy to meet all of you today for dinner! (sadly, cldn't see yuting! ah ting! i miss eeeuuuu!!) heez

anyway! we had such a feast! calamari, ham & cheese bake rice, chicken spagetthi, another type of pasta, some pizza, brownie with icecream and choc milkshake!!

i'm super full..u bet. haha. we were bloated but we had so much laughter. think i was crazy. i was spouting nonsense throughout the whole dinner. think i can join mh as lamer. haha..but mh dun wanna friend me. dunno why. sobs.

why all of u suddenly dun want to friend me haha. think only min joo is on my side. hmph! sandra, we hao peng you right?! hao peng you loves rou gan! not u are rou gan! hahaha...and mh! hee hee...i be lamer with u la, then u be my friend. and hui lin and min joo! i got give presents..must be my friend!

gosh. i'm practically sucking up to you all already. hai. why my friends suddenly like that. lolx. i sound so despo now. but oh well, putting aside the jokes and laming arnd, i really had a great time catching up with you girls! been an enjoyable dinner =) i had lotsa fun! though i was victimised hur hur.

sandra, my heart 'per rak' haha! you know wad i mean! *grinz*

and what's the ans to your puzzle! tell me tell me!!!! me wanna knowwwww!

haha

to my girls: huggies :) miss ya all!

2007-03-10T20:03:00.000-08:00

i'm truly such a pain

such an eyesore

and my only forte is causing trouble to people

i wonder why God loves me that He sent His son to die for me

what worth am i to deserve this?

why is it that hard to control my mind and heart, my emotions

i don't understand myself

not a single bit.

-wounded-

and the cause of all pain and worries is...

me.

...how stupid...

thank you... =)

2007-03-03T04:15:00.000-08:00

it's been a while since i last updated.

well, this whole week was mid term tests..5 in the entire week. and i'm totally drained. maths test was alright, followed by 2 other tests which killed me badly- CM1502 and CN1111. CN1111 is a total goner..100% guaranteed fail. i hope to get at least 20 marks out of 100. that's how bad it is. sigh. i studied hard somemore. killer mod. bah..GEK1532 mcq test was alright..thanks to Guo Yi =) but i s/ued it already. so i barely studied for it anyway. Then this morn was IT1005 programming test. It was really tricky.

to sum it all, this week was really very taxing for me. Sorry to all if i replied your sms-es at an incredibly slow speed, sorry to those who wanted to meet me but i cant...i was just too stressed.

even though my tests ended, i still have tutorials, bio lab, chem lab report, matlab report, so on and so forth. And my saturday is gone already. look, its 9.15 and i haven done anything today. hur hur. i need a break.

ok so that is it.

enough of whining.

now for the more important part...this is dedicated to my dearest =)

Firstly i must say that i've been super duper whiny this week. I was in quite a depressed and stressed mood the entire week, often feeling so down and upset i can't finish studying or don't even know what i'm studying...and often worries that i'll do so badly.

But you never once complained that i was whiny or i was being irritating.

Yet, you were there to listen...you were there to encourage me, comfort me, dry my tears and make me stand up and move on. You were always there when i need you.

You understand that i didn't really have a lot of time this week, that i needed a lot of time to study esp for my cn and cm test on thurs. You understand it all..gave me some space to study the entire day. And you were always a phone away, calling me to wake me up from my short naps, to listen to my whines, to tell me that i can do it, to pray for me.

i was utterly depressed with my cn knowing that i can't even do a simple problem to many, and lost a lot of marks severely...and u were there with me, before and after the test, to pray for me and to hug me and comfort me. i broke down on thurs coz i cldn't take the stress and i was weak, and u cried with me to share my tears. at the end of it all, you put a smile to my face...and i stood up again.

on friday, i realised my pgp lock was spoilt...i couldn't lock my door. i was a little irritated, knowing that i am already busy and i have to fork out time to report this thing and get it fixed. Yet, you were there right after our maths tutorial, and you accompanied me to get it fixed. You were sick really badly, but still helped me with matlab the entire day. i was so worried for matlab coz i didn't know everything, couldn't understand it, and just frustrated with myself. But you were so very patient with me.

you did not show a slightest bit of impatience towards me.

Instead, you explain it to me over and over again, step by step, with utmost patience and love, teaching me from scratch. And you had fever that day. Still, you spent the entire day, till past midnite, accompanying me while i study matlab...until i was done with all the lecture notes. You even spent a few solid hours, reading my matlab textbook and notes, to teach me. You learnt an entire new module just to help me. And you were of great help. You went to search the internet for extra notes, printed them out for me, searched for some test questions, gave them to me and did it with me. You explain every single thing i didn't understand about matlab, until i understood. From 3pm till 12.30am...you were there every single minute. Many times i felt so tired and wanted to give up, but u were there constantly encouraging me and telling me i am almost there...and i can do it.

you reminded me not to compare with others, and it was certainly a good reminder. thank you...

because i was selfish and wanted you to be with me, you didn't manage to do your maths tutorial...sigh, i'm sorry.

the entire week, i was so busy with work, but yet, you understood it all, and just be with me.

today, you woke up and called me straight away, afraid that i overslept for my matlab test. Called me and prayed for my test before i entered the lt...and fetched me right after my matlab test.

you told me that you're willing to give up your s/u and give it all to me. you told me that you're willing to give up all your grades just for me...you told me you're willing to give up all your time just for me...

and

every single prayer you made, there was me. you remembered me in your prayer.

i can't say how much you've sacrificed and done for me coz its just too much. and i'm just so very thankful for you. truly, i thank God for you.

you yourself have much work to do, but you never once complained it to me...but just encourage me all the time, to the extent of helping me to plan my time so i can finish.

you're just too wonderful...and i love you so.

thank you for everything you've done for me...truly, i dun deserve this.

i just wanna say i'm really touched by every single thing you've done for me...everything you did out of love. thank you dear. i wanna be there for you too and you know i'm always there.. =)

-love you..-

MRT vs Life

2007-02-26T08:12:00.000-08:00

I got this from someone's blog...shall not disclose who..but i hope he/she doesn't mind =) Thought it was really meaningful and insightful, and just wanna share with my blog readers...

Ever sat in an MRT train and watched the different people?

Some dozing off, some listening to their MP3 players, some reading papers, some just talking to others - everyone trying to do their own thing..

Everyone in their own world..

Yet there's one thing they share that is the same - their travelling in the same direction inside the train (eastwards or westwards..)

Some will get off earlier and some later .. Some will ride the train till its final stop .. and then get off ..

Its much like life ain't it?

Everyone does their own thing, some are out to make big bucks, some are out to make big families ..

Whatever their aims - they're all going the same way, and one day, DEATH overtakes us all ..

Some will depart earlier and some later .. and some last until the End of Days ..
But all have to get off the train one day ..

Question is: when you get off Life's train, will you have the right card to get out of the underground subway, to the place above? Or remain stuck for all eternity, underground?

-end-

at the end of the day, when i look at own reflection, all i see of myself is a stained piece of cloth...terribly disgraced and ashamed with the sins i've committed, the unholy thoughts that linger, the malicious tongue that speaks...wish i could be more perfect for the glory of God.

happy birthday =)

2007-02-23T08:42:00.000-08:00

specially for you: Happy 22nd birthday =)

Hope you like the present i made for you... :)

on this very special day, i just wanna thank God for you. For everything you've done and sacrificed for me. Thanks for lighting up my life.

I pray that you'll continue to be a huge blessing to those arnd you, and cont being a living testimony for Christ. Thank God for your birth. Truly, you've touched many hearts, many lives...esp me. Thanks for being so special.

I had an enjoyable time today..and i'm sure u too. East coast was bright and sunny, visiting your church and praying in your church's sanctuary was meaningful, watching 'just follow law' was funny, visiting the botanical gardens and feeding the fishes and terapins and birds was absolutely memorable and refreshing. Hope you enjoyed this special day! =)

all the effort was worth it as long as you're happy =) stay happy k and i'll be happy :)

lets cont to strive for the Lord, and study for God and win this race for His glory k! with you always...

-happy birthday dear-

hugs :)

am i still me?

2007-02-19T02:45:00.000-08:00

Recently, i realised i've been thinking a lot about the future..

When i'm bored during visiting, my mind always drift thinking about you, the future that lies ahead...to the point where i thought about death.

The topic of death came into my mind when i visited my grandparents ashes at All Saints Home. I know females' life expectancy is much higher than men...my grandma died 9 years later than my granddad. Then i thought, if i were to be married, what if my hubby died earlier..then i'll be alone..assuming my children aint filial enough haha.

I begin to think about marriage, my own home next time, whether i'll work, whether i shld migrate...

all these thoughts about the future...and i'm only 19 now. Am i maturing? haha. i suddenly feel the lost of urge to do adventurous stuff nowadays, lost the excitement to play or crack jokes. What has happened to me? or am i just in one of those mood swings. =)

And recently, i've been so sleepy...been falling asleep so often these days...like falling asleep at 12 plus at night..and waking up at 4 plus and cont sleeping. And this routine is making me really sleepy in the day and i just can't do anything productive. Maybe thats why i feel so listless nowadays...

hopefully, i'll start regaining my energy soon.

-miss you as always-

chinese new year!

2007-02-18T17:43:00.000-08:00

Since its a festive mood, i took some pictures during reunion dinner and chinese new year itself! can brighten up my blog a bit hee hee.

REUNION DINNER - MARINA SOUTH LONG BEACH

snap shot of my 2 cousins' conversation. Both just entered jc =) my 2 closest cousin hee hee, whom we used to play so much during childhood days...those were the times..

haha what can i say? this is how mothers gossip! (oops! haha..see their serious expressions...wonder what they talking about. and i have to add...every year desert is either 'orh knee' dunno how to spell or 'red bean soup'..can next year be coconut sago or smth haha!)

haha look at my cousins! the family of 5! with 3 ladies wearing tailor made chong sum. sooo cute!

hee hee. my fav lil cousin! we teased her and said she looked like cyrstal jade waitress! lol...and her sis was asking her to serve tea and xiao long bao..!

whoa its so hard to make her smile and take a pic..i had to bribe her with my hp haha

hur hur... =)

hee hee..me again.

ok thats all for pictures! didn't really take a lot using my hp..

OH! my cousin is getting married on 18Mar! MY FIRST COUSIN TO GET MARRIED! ho ho ho..my first wedding dinner! and i was approached to be her bridesmaid...shld i shld i? think it'ld be so fun! get to wear gown somemore! hee hee hee.

ok..now waiting for visitors to come and gtg to another aunt's place for lunch. every year, this lunch will be super good. coz she cooks really well...!! and she has osim massage chair haha.

ok..thats it! happy cny ppl!

CNY festive mood!

2007-02-16T01:30:00.000-08:00

YAY!

Chinese New Year is here again!!!

BOO!

Mid term tests are coming!!!

BUT!

still, this festive season is a time to bond with my family, cousins, relatives and so on...must take this time and catch up with all of them! =)

and yes, i know i've got to study. sigh. such a spoiler.

ohh and i'm thoroughly amused by the amount of cny goodies my mum bought. I just reached home and when i looked at the cabinet! WAH! SO MANY RED CONTAINERS! hahaha and they look really yuummmyy!

and you know me. haha

i stared at them. and opened the one that caught my eye and there it went into my mouth. munch munch. hmm nice! =) crispy, fresh, tasty! haha.

i'm gonna turn into a pig this new year. ho ho ho.

and i can't wait for 23/2 :)

7 days...won't be long. coz eternity lasts forever. =)

[ppl, i just have to officially declare i've 5 MID TERM TESTS after the break!! sigh....nus..chem eng...sigh :P]

- and i'm sad this new year coz my bro is away in manchester... :( but i'll still collect ang pao for him! =)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

you

2007-02-16T01:25:00.000-08:00

happy valentine's day!

It's a special day
full of love in the air...

everyday is valentine's day actually.
With God, with my parents, with my beloved friends, and you.

Thank you friends for all the small little sweets and all. feel so warm
And thank you for all 3 parts of your gift....all the surprises =)

It was so meaningful, spending that special day with God and you.
beautiful.

i'm sorry i've been stressed.
sorry to cause you worries.
but i'll pull through.
knowing you're there.
and i'm there for you.

-you-

Braving the storm with you...

2007-02-11T07:10:00.000-08:00

I know that...

life is not meant to be a bed of roses.
Life has never been meant to be smooth.
Life has never been meant to be a straight road.

Life can be difficult, life can be rocky, life can be such a roller coaster ride.

But God's love has never been like that of a sine curve. God's love has always been abundant, so plentiful, so perfect.

I know that you're tired. You're struggling within. Things you've been desiring for for so long doesn't seem to be reachable. Things are becoming worse. You just feel like they don't care. They don't think it matters. You just feel like ... running away...

So often, I myself feel like running away to some faraway place when i'm troubled, when i'm lost, when i'm tired. But we can never run away from God. He'll know where we are, no matter how far we run..there's never a perfect hiding place other than the Lord.

Just wanna tell you that though it might take a lot of strength from you, a lot of tears...but keep going. Don't quit this race. Be strong in the presence of the Lord. Lean on Him, and He will guide you out of this rocky road...His love for you transcends all understanding. God's plan for you is always perfect and pleasing.

Just keep trusting...and do His will.

Pray, pray and pray...keep communicating with God.

and at the end of it all, you know you will always be safe in His arms.

I'm with you, always...you can cry on my shoulders, whine, vent your frustration...i'll be there. Lets lay all these troubles and burdens at the foot of the cross.

with you...

-hugs-

Have you ever wondered...?

2007-02-10T07:20:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wondered what you would do if you're heartbroken?

Have you ever wondered what's the first thing you would do if you're lost?

Have you ever wondered what's the first thought you would think if you've failed?

Have you ever wondered who would be there when you're down?

Have you ever wondered who would care for you when you're sick?

Have you ever wondered who would love you forever with a true heart?

Have you ever wondered that life is short?

Have you ever wondered what you want out of life?

Have you ever wondered what's the purpose of living?

Have you ever wondered...have you ever wondered..have you ever wondered.....

have u ever wondered who God is?

He's such a mighty, awesome God. The One who never forsakes His children...The One who shows the greatest love for you and for me. He cares for you when u're sick, when you're down. He's there for you when you're tired. He takes away your stresses, takes away your sadness, takes away your pain.

what more can we asked for?

Yet, when we're faced with struggles, our initial reaction is to fluster and solve them on your own. Where's God in your life? Have you ever wondered that God's there?

Total dependence on God..thats what we need. When we're down, sick, in pain, in difficulty, the first thing we should always do is to depend on Him. PRAY. prayer works wonders. you won't know till you do it.

=)

although today was really unproductive for me...and you broke your phone...but we were there for each other. =) We still thank God for today, for everything that has happened. For lessons were learnt through all these. We learn and grow. Despite the short 45 mins, it was special. i'm special, and you're special. Thanks for dropping by =)

i'm terribly struggling with my modules now. Hmm, it may be demoralising...but its ok, my hope continues to dwell in the Lord. I'll do my best however much i dislike the subject. Persevering i shall be. Striving to run the race for the Lord. It's always about Him, and not about me. This studying road as a student will not be for my glory but His.

you said i have grown much over the past several months...i've become more mature...hmmm...have i? =) *ponders* hehe.

the karaoke conversation is sooo sweet and cute. thank uuu!!!
*beams*

tired, but happy =)

thank you mummy! =)

2007-02-09T03:11:00.000-08:00

its friday again..and i'm back home! yay...i love to be back home in the east.

it feels so warm...it feels exactly where i belong...home, nothing beats more than home.

my mummy told me she bought new year clothes for me..and showed them to me. 3 tops and 2 bottoms! 3 really sweet blouses and 2 skirts. =) i like them! i thought i had to wear old clothes this new year coz i didn't bother to go out and buy but mummy knows i was too busy to go shopping..and bought them for me!

=) and she has good taste!

yay =) can't wait for cny..not mid terms though. this cny, my aunt from london came down. so she'll be spending cny with us! =)

reunion dinner next fri and sat! can't wait! all the gooood food and get together with relatives!

once again, thank u mummy! =)

2007-02-08T03:47:00.000-08:00

And i know my hope dwells in the Lord forever...

and my hope is in the Lord forever...

forever it shall be.

=)

Running back to Him...

2007-02-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

I've fallen, but i'm gonna stand up. At the end of the day, i'll run back to God and i'm running back now. He's my refuge, my shelter, my hope, my strength. I can only say Amen to that.

sorry for the last 2 demoralising and pessimistic posts, think i might have scared some people off...but i'm fine now. i'm smiling at least =)

For the past few days, i felt really disappointed with myself. Felt that my world is crashing, felt so ashamed with my attitude with God, with love, with so many issues that bombard me incessantly. I felt so bogged down the past night...shed tears...sighed so much...and just felt lost. I questioned myself if i truly love God, if i truly have that faith in Him..questioned myself about who i am...why am i in such a state now? Where's my identity? Have i changed to become another person that i don't recognise anymore? I know myself that i'm easily influenced esp by people and the environment...that every influence i get seems to change a little part of me...so much so that as though i'm losing myself along the way. The thought made me cry, made me frustrated, ashamed and lost.

But as i bucked up my courage to swallow my tears and went for cell group just now, i begin to see things from a different perspective. I kept going to the toilet today, so i can msg you and just let the tears flow...i didn't wanna cry infront of anybody. I tried to swallow my tears and went for worship. As i sang, i felt comforted. God was consoling me...my eyes were teary but i did not cry. I know God was speaking to me this day. During cell group time, we discussed about prayer..what it takes to have a God centered prayer. And it dawned on me that God is speaking to me....this week, campus crusade dg also talked about prayer..and i've been troubled over prayer. coz i myself am truly aware that my prayer walk with God has been erratic. It's like a sine curve, going up and down. And recently, it was at its lowest.

Prayer for the last few months has been so routined. I pray with you everyday..but do i feel it in my heart? When i pray, it seems to be all about me..and not about God. Today i learnt that prayer is not merely presenting my requests to God, and letting God endorse it and approve it. Prayer is not about what we want...but about what God wants from us. In this life story of ours, we are not the main characters of the story...we're not the princess or prince, but rather, we're just one minor character..and the director of the story is God. He directs our life, and not us. We don't choose what we want, but we abide in God. God-centered prayer...how important it is.

Ben gave a really good analogy today. Imagine its christmas, and you secretly found out that your dad has bought a x box as a christmas present for you. And on christmas, you would obviously be happy that u got the x box even though you did not ask for it. Because your dad has bought it for you!

In the same way, God, as our father, already have good gifts installed for us. We, as His children, should abide in Him and know what He has for us, rather than asking it from Him. Prayer is not just about petition all the time...we don't just pray coz we want things from God..we don't just pray when we are desperate. In fact, we get desperate coz our walk with God hasnt been strong. And that really describes me..how i often pray when i'm struggling...

I believe God has spoke to me today. That He has provide a way out for me...He has clearly showed me that as i run back to Him, i have to first discipline myself and start having God-centered prayer...to talk to Him and be receptive of what He has to say to me. He has comforted my soul, took away my tears, abound me with love...and truly, He's the Father of all.

so friends, i hope my testimonoy will encourage us not to be afraid to fall. But realise that we have a loving God who is always there for us...let us be His beacon of light, be the salt and light of this world.

I'm gonna start a prayer journal...as my whole cell suggested. Think it would really allow me to see how God answers my prayers.

to you, please don't worry anymore. if God is with me, no one can be against me. Not even satan. Not the world. thank you for always being there. we'll walk this journey step by step, with faith, hope and love in our heavenly Father.

2007-02-02T21:49:00.000-08:00

i'm pondering if i've lost my identity..

maybe i do not know who i am anymore..

i feel energy-less.

i'm back...

2007-02-02T18:09:00.000-08:00

It's been a long time since i last blogged. Well, i was fasting from non-nus and email websites and 1 meal fast for the past 10 days...but perhaps, i fasted for the wrong reasons and somehow, it's disappointing when i reflect upon myself again and again. Guess i was more of telling myself that i could do it than depending on God and being more receptive on my senses for Him.

sigh what can i say...disappointed as i am, ashamed as i am, i know God's unfailing love is always there. That He never forsakes me and He hears my cries.

i need a spiritual revival.

it dawned on me now that i really am nothing. a person with countless flaws, who always blames herself and puts herself down with her imperfection.

maybe God should just take everything away from me right now so whatever i have left is just God's love..and then i know how empty it is not to have His love.

a struggle within.

be strong.

be with me. i need you.

Father Bring Together

2007-01-21T09:17:00.000-08:00

i fell in love with this song during Church today...does anybody have this song? =) hee hee.

Father Bring Together

Father, bring together the Church that bears Your name
Fill us with the passion to proclaim that Jesus reigns
Pour oil on our prayers and let Your Spirit come
We’ll fight against the darkness, don’t let the flame die down

For the Church stands before You in worship
Prayers burning bright against the sky
Lord we want to burn, not just a flickering flame
But to be wholly consumed in Your Name

-Burn for Christ-
Keep the fire burning...

bored

2007-01-20T04:38:00.000-08:00

i'm getting tired and bored of doing my tutorials...and there's still more to be done! to relieve a lil of my boredom, just felt like typing something here.

My brother left for Manchester 2 nights ago. =( sobs, he'll be away for 6 months or so. long long time. If you read the newspaper, you would have known that UK is experiencing really really bad weather these days. Thankfully, my brother's flight didn't get affected..just delayed. The winds were so strong that many flights were affected and had to stop somewhere else. My brother's flight almost landed at Glasgow! Phew...luckily it managed to reached Manchester or there wld be so much hassle. He hasn't got his luggage yet..till now..because of the weather. Maybe they can't unload or smth. -shrugs- but it's so inconvenient. 2 days without your luggage! thankfully, he got 2 hand carry bags and have some extra clothing in there. poor boy.

and i heard from my daddy that his hostel is pretty run down. ceiling light spoilt. heater not working properly. and its far from his campus. aiyo. hopefully he can request for transfer with his 2 other friends.

I miss my brother..thank God he's safe and sound. Pray that his luggage will come soon, his room will get fixed and everything would be comfy and nice for him. But i know he'll survive...he has been through training in Brunei and Taiwan anyway! hehe..and i know God is with him. Thank you to all those who've been praying for him..and please do cont praying for him. =)

why do all my weekends seem to pass exceptionally fast? and my next weekend will be totally burnt by canoeing..sobs.

i fall down, but i stand up again.

2007-01-19T04:16:00.000-08:00

2 weeks of school have passed and i guess i'm gradually adjusting to school once again.

The past 2 weeks have been up and down. Somehow it feels like i've lesser time than other people..haha. Friends around me seem to be able to finish their tutorials really quickly, read their textbooks, have free days, post questions on forum, so on and so forth. For the past week, i admit i was getting a lil stressed up, realising that i'm starting to get blur during lectures and seeing people working really hard. Perhaps i might say it's the environment around me, it's the faculty i'm in, it's the people around me..but all in all, i think i am the cause of my own stress. but now, i'm taking things a lil easier.

thank you for hearing me today =) i must have been whiny. hee hee.

Today i went to meet Jo for some crusade updates and short prayer. And she mentioned about how the news talked about the coming of the end of the world. How everything seems chaotic now..nuclear warfare, environmental disasters, upside down climate order etc. Then i asked myself, if there's only 5 mins left before the end of the world, am i still gonna make myself so stressed up, thinking about the amount of work i need to do? No...i'ld much rather spend the last 5 mins of my life spreading the gospel of God and sharing God's love with someone.

I have to admit that there's a competitive streak in me. And i'm trying really hard to get rid of it. It comes on and off...not all the time. I questioned myself what's the reason for me feeling this way...wanting to do better than the rest? wanting to show other people i'm gd? wanting to prove to myself that i can do it? wanting to have a good stable career? but as i asked myself this question, i realised how much unnecessary worries i've brought upon myself. Many a times, i tell people to 'just do your best and leave the rest to God' yet i so often don't do what i preach. silly aint i. but today as i talk it out with u, and as the questions bombard my head, i realised that such competitiveness may bring short term happiness (for eg, doing well in a test or exam) but deep down, such happiness is empty.

totally empty.

it's empty if u just wanna do well for pride or for any other human reasons. Yet, it would mean so much more if you did well for God's glory. Don't mistaken me...doing badly wld not mean not glorifying God. In fact, as long as u do your best, place your trust in Him, whether or not u do well is not for me to decide but God...and by doing His will and having the right heart, i'm already glorifying God. And that's all it matters. Bringing a smile to God's face is all that gives me complete joy. J.O.Y = Jesus, Others, Yourself. I should always place myself last. By focusing on Jesus and then helping others, i wld experience true joy.

I've fallen. Many times actually. I rise and fall...rise and fall down again. I fall short of my inadequacies. We all do from time to time. But all it takes is that courage and faith to stand up again. I've been tempted very often to do well for my studies, tempted to place my books before the bible, tempted to study before prayer...so many temptations, so hard to resist. But God is faithful. He'll never give me a temptation too hard to bear...He'll always provide a way out for me no matter how difficult it may be. I may continue to fall...but i'm not afraid to fall coz i'll stand up again and i know you'll pull me up. =)

I'll continue to struggle..i know it. It's never easy to change and totally apply what you preach...saying is always much easier than doing. Friends, do remind me from time to time when i'm straying..simple reminders will do me good =) It's gonna take a while i guess, but i'm not giving up. I may whine, i may cry, i may struggle, but i know God and you will always be there to comfort me and give me strength.

thanks for being there. =)

I'm growing day by day...and i thank God for all these struggles for it's through all these that makes me realise how unworthy i am of His love.. and its times like these that i humble myself, and depend on God... turn back to Him and discover for myself the true beauty and wonder of knowing my Lord, Jesus Christ.

i love my Father.

2007-01-14T07:07:00.000-08:00

random

2007-01-14T06:50:00.000-08:00

Anyway, on a lighter note, I finished watching this show, 'e zuo ju zhi wen'. It's quite nice - funny and touching. I laughed quite a bit, cried quite a bit towards the ending. It's better than 'e mo zai shen bian' even though yang cheng ling is cuter. heh heh. i guess i better stop you-tubeing for the time being coz once i start, i'll be hooked! those who haven't watched and is very free, try watching it! recommended by me hee hee.

sigh

2007-01-14T06:39:00.000-08:00

A week of school has passed. Somehow, i'm still dreading the start of tutorials and labs and whatever not. I guess i've not set my heart down to the monotony of schooling. sigh.

i don't wanna whine but i'm just feeling a little down shifting from home to pgp once again. and now, i'm in this room with 4 walls around me...all alone, facing my lap top, typing. and its 10.40pm. My mom and dad's voices, my brother's footsteps...i miss all of those. Today, before i left home for pgp, i decided to bring a photo frame of my family photo. And its nicely placed beside my lap top, on the table, now. As i type, my eyes continuously glanced across to the photoframe...and its a photo of us sitting in a garden at Russia, with flowers all surrounding us and us, smiling so brightly. and my brother...he's leaving for Manchester. i'm so sad....... =( so gonna miss him. even though we both are busy with our own stuff, but i still know that he's around at home, in his room...but now, he's going for 6 months! so long =( sigh. and my parents will be all alone at home..and i'll be alone at pgp. i wish my family doesn't have to part in any way.

sigh.

and soon, i'm gonna be drowned with all the assignments and lab reports and tutorials....

i miss my family. i miss you.

God's creation is the best!

2007-01-06T08:05:00.000-08:00

I really thank God for His beautiful creation. For creating the universe, the night, the stars, the moon, the beach...you. It was a perfect night. beautiful.

I ate so much i'm bloated and tired. uzap to the rescue? hee hee.

but i'm happy. so happy.

many more 6 to come.

i'm blessed.

=)

2007-01-03T18:55:00.000-08:00

I know i'm quite late but still, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

This year has been extraordinary, really. During the long break i had after A Levels, i went to work at KPMG for 5 months. It was such an interesting experience, as i faced so much office politics, pushing of workload, sarcastic remarks from some managers, seeing the horribly stressed look of the colleagues who had to work till 12am on weekdays sometimes. But admist it all, there are really nice colleagues like Mei Ling and Karen who brought my whole working experience so much happiness and till today, i'm still keeping in touch with mei ling. =)

I guess Uni hasn't been that bad. Though i've whined quite a lot about being so busy, being so stressed up, but all these business was my own doing. I chose Chem Eng, despite knowing that it would be stressful. I chose to be in canoeing sub club and campus crusade, and i chose to be part of the SYC Committee. But each and every one of these activities have made me learn so much. I never knew how to operate photoshop till i joined canoeing...i never knew i could design t shirts and see people wearing them. =) I never knew that this year i would be able to attend my first church camp.

This year, i was fortunate. I managed to go to Russia and China cum Vietnam with my family. Both trips were awesome and i really thank God for them.

But this year, admist everything else, i'm most thankful for you. You've been such an angel, lighting up my life. I am so so blessed. =)

Celebrating Christmas and New Year was superbly wonderful this year and there will be many more to come =)

2007 - I just really want to cherish those around me, esp jess and you. Most importantly, i want to manage my time well and place my priorities right - keeping God as the first priority in my life. I must strive to seek His will every single day of my life.

Let us also face 2007 with courage. Together as one, we'll overcome all struggles or hurdles together..and we know we can do all these because we have God in the centre. =) things will work out.

Hope 2007 will be great for all of us!!

2006-12-30T09:00:00.000-08:00

Today has been a really long day.

Went for k lunch with mei ling. It was really wonderful seeing her again. It's been so long since i last met her...almost 4-5 months i think! All along we've been kinda keeping in touch with each other, but i was always so busy, not being able to meet up with her during her off days. I'm so happy today i could meet up with her to catch up and do our usual activity - k box! just the two of us. =) We updated each other of our life, and i get to hear how the other colleagues in kpmg are doing and all. Though my age gap and hers differ by almost 10 years, we can click and i'm so thankful to know her. =)

But the highlight of the day was the concert organised by Play By Ear and my brother performed a piece. He played really well...i was nervous for all the participants, coz there were a few who fumbled and played wrong notes..i could see their shivering fingers too. Mind you, it was relaly not easy. To play solo on a grand piano on a stage in Raffles Hotel Jubilee Hall is not an easy task. I myself, as an audience, could feel jittery for the performers. What about them? But they were all good. Some of them could play a piece just by learning the piano for 4 months! incredible! But the winner in my heart would of course be my brother. As he played the jazz piece, i was feeling so proud of him. so so proud of him. could see that my parents were so proud of him too. They were beaming. =) my brother really played very well. Even though he said he didn't play as well coz he fumbled a little (which can't really be heard ), he's still the best in my heart. Just wanna say that i'm so proud of you and you really did it well! :)

i'm watching a taiwan drama now..called 'e zuo ju zhi wen'. It's really funny and nice. should catch it! i'm at episode 3!

China Photos Finale Photo Galore

2006-12-28T10:16:00.000-08:00

ok for the last post. decided to put scenic pictures coz it's really beautiful. put my face will spoil the pic. haha. enjoy! its absolutely breathtaking!

this is 'de tian pu bu' the 3rd largest waterfall at the borders. this is between china and vietnam.

i had a night stay amongst these mountains. so beautiful i tell u. but got lots of mosquitoes. =X

managed to see sunset in the bus! so preeeettty!

this is taken during a boat ride in vietnam. At Ha Lom bay. these 2 rocks look like 2 chickens fighting rite! 'dou ji' u call it. so cute =)

magnificent

this is super beautiful. All limestone. We went to two caves. this cave is the best. look at the structures and lightings! i was so in awe my mouth dropped open when i went in. haha. i felt like i was in some magical place.

This is at yang shuo, which is in Gui Lin. the mountains here are the best.

i think my father can win the best photographer award. this pic is so professional, i think it can be used on national geographic. look at the bird!

a muscial performance. i was so engrossed. look at it! its fabulous!

here! a demo of the fisherman trying to take the fish out from the bird.

this is at Gui Lin. they have bridges that look so westernised!

woowww...

ok that marks the end of my trip. there's more than 1GB of pictures..(my father is good eh! haha) but i only got patience to load all these. takes a long time to load! hehe. hope its enjoyable to view them. =) i regretted not taking the toilets! should see them..some are without doors and but still have to use. bo pian. but it really stinks like crazy..i dun think i can stay in there long enough to take a picture haha. anyway, china is really beautiful..the rural parts la...but the air is bad at the more city areas. really bad, can cause lung cancer haha. wanna go jiu zai gou one day. heard the scenery there is the best. hee hee.

anyway, this's the finale post for china and vietnam pictures! hope u all like it! :)

China Photos Part 2

2006-12-28T09:16:00.000-08:00

ok..Part 2 are pictures with people. sorry ah, realised a lot got my face. haha. oopss! but look at the scenery! really beautiful...see how wonderful God is. mother nature makes me go in awe all the time. =)

me and my mummy

hehe so sweet..mummy and daddy

family pic! the waterfall is called 'de tian pu bu'. but winter time not that much water.

me and my bro! we love this pic!

me and my cousins who went! =) all nus students except for jia yu (the girl)

hehe sweet pic

do i look like a vietnamese lady? :P

see the pweety background!

just look at the traffic in vietnam! SOOO many motorcycles i tell u. cannot breathe ah. all the carbon monoxide.

haha. we were given army jackets to wear to keep warm. so funny la. we look like mao ze dong or smth. some soviet union army. and i suggested doing the salute pose and my family members so obliging..even my parents! see their big big smile on their faces! haha..i look soooo fffaaattt! we all do. haha

not light i tell u! so scared the bird come and poke me. this bird is called 'yu ying'. famers use it to catch fishes. these birds will go into the sea to caatch the fish, then the farmer will make it spit out the life fish it caught. so the birds don't get to eat these fishes. really interesting..we get to see the whole process!

haha my bro was made to sing using the mike. peer pressure. i was nice and decided to sing with him and all my cousins were involved too. coz we dunno 'shan ge', we sang 'tian mi mi'. haha! i look so enthusiastic. hur hur.

haha i think my parents look super duper cute!

=)

China Photos Part 1

2006-12-28T08:57:00.000-08:00

When i went to Gui Lin and North Vietnam, i was totally absorbed to all the babies that i see on the street! haha coz their winter clothings really make them so adorable and i go goo goo ga ga over them! literally! ask my dad, mom, bro, or cousins, they can testify to this! haha. eveyrtime i say 'oh my gosh, so cute!!', they have to make sure their cameras are ready coz it's understood that i wanna take pictures with these babies! and i wld be so crazy, i wld go and play with the babies and tell their mummies her baby very cute. haha. and then i wld continue saying over and over how cute they are.

ok. i TOTALLY ADORE BABIES. fullstop haha. but some babies got so frightened of me, they refused to take picture with me and cry! it wasn't intentional! my dad wants to take the picture too! :P (push the blame) haha. oops. but then, all the mummies are so willing to let me take pics with their babies. wa haha.

wad can i say but 'so cute!' the babies i mean. dont you totally agree with me?!

this is the poor little baby boy who cried so badly. look at him tugging his mummy coz he really don't want to take picture with me! (so very hurt) see how willing the mummy wants me to take the photo with her baby! hehe.

ok, there were a lot more babies that i saw but too pai seh to ask for a picture. so this is it. haha. end of babies galore.

2006-12-25T07:09:00.000-08:00

i'm really feeling a sense of dread as i see sch reopening in 2 weeks time.

i can't imagine the looming workload..all the labs..assignments, projects, tutorials, exams.

YIKES

EEKS

why can't everyday be like christmas...so happy and merry and spending time with your loved ones =)

urgh. its time to do the bidding chore and look at my results slip. boo. i dun likeeeee.

my timetable is so horrible..clashes with everything i wanna take. there's nth left that i want to take that i can take. and i gotta change class with hardly anyone i know in there.

sob...

is it just nus? or is it just me...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2006-12-24T21:23:00.000-08:00

HO HO HO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

It's this special day again! May all be reminded on this special day of God's love for us - that He gave His only son for us. This priceless gift, i can never thank enough for. I pray that this Christmas is so very special in each and everyone's hearts. Let us give thanks to God for this very special day. =)

Have a blessed Christmas everyone!

Here's a merry christmas hug to all of you =)

I'M BACK!

2006-12-22T21:17:00.000-08:00

It has been a long long time since i last blogged. After the 1 week holiday at China and North Vietnam, i kinda lost the momentum to blog. Inertia u call it. hee hee.

My trip to China and North Viet was fabulous. I went to Gui Lin, Yang Shuo, Hanoi...the scenery and nature there is awesome! I love the mountains, the clear blue sky, the birds, the vast sea, the villages, the rurality...it makes me so dreamy when i was there. I kept picturing myself living such simple, happy and stress free life. It's magnificent...the majestic mountains reminds me of how great God is. God is really such a creative God. =) Will upload the pictures when its ready..

SYC Camp was great. Everything went pretty smooth...the first nite, i responded to altar call..and i teared that night..i was so touched, can't really express how i felt then..i just know that i desire for Him, and i really yearn more of Him.

Many things have happened for the past few weeks...ups and downs. I fell quite sick...lost my voice, sounded like a frog. San, u can testify to this! haha...but yay, we finally had our k box outing though i was supposedly having my sorethroat. u guys cured it! my throat is fine now..yay yay..

i'm really glad yesterday's christmas party went well...i was even more glad that zz, sb, ko sing, winnie and u went. =) Hope u all enjoyed it! smiles

i'm quite random now..dunno wad to blog about. I guess next week gonna be quite a busy week...will be meeting mei ling (finally!), xin ling, jia min, acqua (maybe first), and prob got jc class outing. but i'll make sure i have enough time for other things :)

christmas is arnd the corner! i'm so happy...yay, its gonna be such a fab christmas this year! yippee!

and this year, there's so much to thank God for. esp this christmas, so many thanksgiving to do... =) will thank God with u. God has been wonderful..He has been so faithful, always opening His arms for me. but i'm a naughty girl, always running away and putting other things before Him. My bad...God has shown me what it takes to sin...the consequences i have to bear, the amount of faith it takes to resist any temptation...the past few days have been such a roller coaster ride but at the end of it, God is still there, providing a way out for us. Praise be to God =)

If God is for us, who can be against us?

FINALLY! k boxing!

2006-12-22T21:13:00.000-08:00

Cool Slideshows

A day at seoul garden

2006-12-22T19:18:00.000-08:00

Cool Slideshows

post exam post

2006-12-06T09:42:00.000-08:00

a pretty old pic but anyway! This's my CTW class! taken by Mr James Stephen! such a cool tutor..haha, still got bring camera to take pictures for us on the last day..

and i'm happy for my position paper. satisfied i guess. not say exceedingly well but i'm contented considering the super super huge amt of effort put in! =)

ANYWAY WOO HOOOOO!!!!
I'M EXAMS FREEEEEE!!!!
FREEE FROM THE CLUTCHES OF THE EXAM MONSTER! YIPPEEE!!!!

i'm insane. its 1.48am.

anyway, i won't talk about how the exams went, coz its useless anyway. see the grades and it'll tell. boo hoo. i'm just happy there's no more mugging for the next few weeks. ITS HOLIDAY TIME! so many things coming up! church camp, canoeing Northern Island Expedition (can't go though), China trip, legs n peddales and explore de quays pub work, meeting up with friends...(guitar ppl...i'm gonna start booking u all for k box. WATCH OUT. haha), and ho ho ho! CHRISTMASS!!! so happy =) so looking forward to that day. whee...

Anyway, i'm gonna leave my crazy self and get back to normal now. heh heh.

Just wanna say that the past few weeks have been really eventful. Really thank God for guiding me through the exam period and for sending me angels to my life to pray for me, encourage me, and run the race with me. =) truly appreciate it so much. though exams were truly disgusting (sorry, can't think of a better word now. brain dead already), it really made me learn quite a lot, not in the academic arena. It taught me how sometimes, things are so simple..that really, you just have got to rely on Him and just do your best. Thats it. God will guide you for sure if you've the faith. The everyday prayer and chat has really pieced things together, that putting God in the centre of everything is the solution, the one and only way. The support and love, i cannot describe. but truly, i really just wanna thank God for everything and now, i wanna continue glorifying Him with multiple hands and not singlehandedly. =) May God continue to guide each and everyone of us. =)

The feeling after exams was hmm kinda funny. suddenly, exams are over? and i've got the 'i can't believe its over' mood. so fast. so sudden. like poof, and the monster has vanished. but i'm happy..and exceptionally happy that day. today was remarkable too...canoeing reccee was quite fun, as u can tell from the slideshow. (though i was suan-ded the whole time) Prayer meeting was really truly rejuvenating and meaningful. The night was awesome. God is good indeed! i had a pleasant day =)

i'm going cycling with my guitar dearies tmr! yayyy....been so long since we gathered together! gonna have fun! then i gotta be at church for prayer walk till late i guess. friday will be church camp! and sat evening, i'll be off to china. sad and happy though. hee hee

and anyway, i think i have fallen in love with the number 6

canoeing reccee for NIE'06

2006-12-06T09:14:00.000-08:00

Cool Slideshows

2006-12-04T07:25:00.000-08:00

I dunno what's gotten into me.

I just want a really tight warm hug from God now.

2006-12-04T00:00:00.000-08:00

"God is love. Whoever lives in love, lives in God, and God in Him." 1 John 4:16

SOS!

2006-12-03T07:29:00.000-08:00

I need a MEMORY BOOSTER PILL and a TEMPORARY TIME STOPPER.

WHO WANTS TO SPONSOR ME...highly appreciated!!

HAHA

2006-12-02T19:29:00.000-08:00

SAY NO TO DRUGS, SAY NO TO MLE!!! (aka material science and engineering - my last paper)

2006-12-02T02:42:00.000-08:00

Cool Slideshows

2006-12-02T02:19:00.000-08:00

Cool Slideshows

2006-12-02T01:59:00.000-08:00

FNA is finally over, a load off my chest. though a lil disappointed, i'll move on..

one more paper, but its a killer paper. I haven't really touched on mle, so dead but i dun feel like studying. boo. how to remember??? goodness. unless i've some photographic memory or smth.

shifted all my stuff from pgp back home today and my oh my, i really have a lot of things. I felt like i just shifted house.

oh happy belated birthday Daddy.. glad u like the present. love ya =)

food for thought =)

2006-11-30T21:20:00.000-08:00

Just received this email from Mei Ling..really meaninful =) do read it and reflect upon it!

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar... and the coffee...?

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was?

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full.?They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognise that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things. Your family, your children, your faith, your health,your friends, and your favourite passions. Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter. Your job, your house, and your car.

The sand?is everything else. The small stuff.?If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

prayer is powerful, it really is

2006-11-30T08:16:00.000-08:00

Being able to pray every single night like this is really such a meaningful and lovely thing and i really love it =)

truly, without God, nothing will work and everything will be futile.

God works as the basis of foundation for any single thing, be it studies or any other life issues.

He has showered me with so many blessings and truly, i'm thankful =)

-never underestimate the power of prayer for it is powerful and mighty indeed-

quick quick quick!

2006-11-30T02:03:00.000-08:00

Davina is a lil unwell today but she's still happy =) not because of my mno paper though. just hope i cld at least get a B for it.

I really can't wait for 5th December now - the day i'm freed of the exam monster. And i wish it was morning paper..evening paper makes everything seems sooo long. and she could only yearn time pass quickly.

i realised..

i lost the drive to study. initially i wanted time to pass slower so i got more time to study. But as i see 5th December getting nearer and nearer, i wish time faster pass so i can get it over and done with for all my papers. i know i'll be happpyyy on that day =)

you know why.... :)

so fri is my FNA paper...urgh. i so dun want it to kill me. i have low confidence and kinda fear this subject. pray pray pray..after this paper i'll be relieved. just took a good 1 hour nap. i'm refreshed and smiley now! i'll do my best!!

GANBATTE!

ohh...and i reallllliii can't wait for x'mas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woo Hoo!! =D *dance arnd in glee*

2006-11-26T05:13:00.000-08:00

I am mathified.

The whole day was spent on doing maths, maths and more maths. practised till i felt so drained and bored...and i haven't reached that level of being able to do fast and without looking at the solutions haha. boo hoo.

but still, studying maths is much better than mle. seriously blank about that subject.

but anyway, i felt so restless and bored in the midst of practicing that i watched '13 on 30' on HBO. quite a funny movie..but didn't finish coz i was feeling guilty halfway. heh heh.

and as u can tell, i'm bored now too..and thats why i'm blogging for the sake of blogging...

well, life is good still and always giving thanks for everything.

I believe God is guiding and working in us =)

keep going ppl!

The battle has begun!

2006-11-24T23:11:00.000-08:00

I've just had my first exam in uni a few hours back.

After the 2 hours of scratching head, flipping papers, intensive scrabbling...it just seems that time passes so fast. The end of a 2 hour paper marks the end of an entire module which i've been doing for 5 months already. All the projects, assignments, research, writing, thinking...and through it all, beautiful friendships have been created. =) my ctw class has been wonderful, i can't give more thanks. and my tutor is one of the best i've ever come across in uni so far...in all, this module, though a lil heavy, it has been fun.

I had lunch with my cousin Yijun and my brother...finally saw his room in kuok (i kinda like it there compared to pgp, maybe i'll relocate in year 2 heh heh) Lunch at botak jones was good (its a stall in a coffee shop that sells western food and is superbly well known for customer service and good price with food coming in big big portions..shld go see their sausage.. ENORMOUS! ) had a great time catching up with my bro and my cousin..as we giggle and gossip abt life in uni. =) though all 3 of us found our papers tough today, dont worry okie..we'll do fine ultimately. Results isn't everything anyway!

Really, i sincerely give thanks to God today for guiding me through, for the friends that have shown me constant encouragement, for everything and anything.

lets remember to give thanks depsite the grades...coz ultimately, God is in control of everything.

I'm entrusting the entire exam into His hands..for this exam is not for my glory, but His. =)

Let's strive on with faith and in love. To all my friends, you've got my utmost support. together, we'll run the race..God bless!

See how much Davina has grown! HAHAHA

2006-11-21T09:42:00.000-08:00

i'm taking a BREAK from studying...
Not that i've got lots of time to spare to blog such wu liao stuff but heh, studying is so monotonous! haha...though i still have sooo soo much to study. bleah. its never ending anyway. heh heh.

I;ve decided to do a lil welfare stuff for all my uni friends who will be going thru the horrendous exams in a few days time. My blog will serve as a stress-reliever kit! i know how stressed we all can get. To prevent all of us from going INSANE, we all need some laughter to cheer us up! haha

so..here's a sneak preview of my pics when i was young!!! SEE HOW MUCH I'VE GROWN! haha from a lil baby....so innocent. giggles..

AND...

DO YOU THINK I LOOK LIKE A BOY WHEN I WAS A BABY?! haha! some ppl told me that.

LOOK AT MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE GENUINE ESPLANADE!!!!! wahahha! am i doing sorta like a hip hip hurray action? hahaha...i'm goin nuts

AND HER HAIR STARTS TO GROW..AND NO MORE DURIANS NOW. heh heh i was plump when i was young. hmm..think chubby is a nicer word. ahahha.

Why do i seem to open my mouth when i take picture?! haha i just realised...

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AND THEN SHE STARTS GROWING THINNER. and she was a regular yamaha student for 6 years ..i started young! look at the t shirt? ohh and my hair accessories! used to have a basketful of them and i will choose wad i want and my maid will help me tie my hair. hahahha...

and she is thoroughly blessed with a doting and caring brother who's currently chionging the exam race with her too!

to everyone including my bro: JIA YOU! =) and remember to give thanks to God for everything! will pray!

ME STRESSED!

2006-11-19T02:53:00.000-08:00

A pic of me at the zoo. I'm as unhappy as that poor little animal. Is that a chimpanzee? *ponders* (i'm sua koo)

ANYWAY!

I'M SICK OF STUDYING!!! i'm here to whineeeeeee hahaha

dav's been so so unproductive, she feels she's gonna screw up & flunk. her brain has a limited capacity and it feels empty. thats bad. where has all the knowledge gone? did they exist in the first place? 5 more days and i've got TONS to study. dun talk about practice. BOO. dav's stressed. and she so badly wanna spend the holidays NOWW. exams are so demoralising. roar. such a toll on the delicate human brain. haha. ok, i'm exaggerating. i'm going inssaannneeee

ok, breathe. God will make a way!

to all who have been or are stressed..here's a vibrant smile from my cute lil coussie to all of you..hope it cheers you up!

SEE how my cousin, emma, has grown from such a cute lil innocent gal to such a pretty young gal now! heh heh both pics taken at my house. she'll be very popular next time hahaha!

OK...AND SOMETHING FOR ALL OF YOU TO LAUGH AT!

TO RELIEVE STRESS...LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE...

HERE IT IS!!!! HAVE A GOOD LAUGH! =)

MY TRANSFORMATION! (special thanks to Guo Yi hur hur)...any similarity??

ok..thats all for now.

(gosh, its night already haha. hmm what have i done today? *scratches my head & pulls my hair off* I WANT TIME!!!!!)

2006-11-17T06:07:00.000-08:00

thorougly DISAPPOINTED with myself

i'm such an irresponsible freak.

argh.

where have i placed God and His Church in my heart?

Everyone must be disappointed with me. even i myself am so disappointed with myself.

really didn't mean it. wish i could turn back time.

i'm so sorry SYC team..i know all of you have been contributing so much, praying so much, and kept emphasizing the need for unity as one...and yet, i got so cooped up with so many other things and neglected this camp. SIGH. i really dun deserve to be in the comm. what have i done that have helped the team?

i'm just so so so disappointed with myself that i can't concentrate anymore. =(

sigh.

I can't thank all of you enough..

2006-11-15T04:01:00.000-08:00

MY 19TH BIRTHDAY...

was splendid.

It's been my best bday so far.

Really thank all of you who have made my 19th bday so special. You guys have truly touched my heart and i really thank God for all of you.

Saturday (11/11)
Jess came to my house that day and we had a good time catching up. I hope your problem has more or less been resolved. =) hope i was of some help! happy to help you! and i was really happy to see you once again, and if you do need any listening ear, or help, just feel free to call or sms me k! i'll be there =) and thanks for your lovely bag and letter you wrote to me. Really sweet..love ya dear. i truly cherish our 10 and going years of friendship! it's been a long time, but it'll continue to grow in years to come, i promise. Thank God for such a wonderful best friend like you!!

Sunday (12/11)
I went to church for service and expected to rot the rest of the day quietly and boringly in my room. Never did i expect the sudden violent knock on the door at approx 2pm. I was bewildered. Who in my family would knock so hard? Hardly were there times when my family members would knock on my door. They would just open as and when they like. Shocked, and stunned, i just shouted, "YA?" and ta da! I had a BIG SURPRISE!

Right there standing at my room's door was PUI SZE, HUI LIN, MIN HWEE AND SANDRA! i was so shocked that i was speechless! Apparently, i was in quite an unglam state coz at home ma! hahaha and my room all in a mess and all..so paiseh. haha they nvr give me any hints! truly, i was shocked! you guys succeeded in ur surprise! and i knew my brother was involved in their secret plan! =) Those lovely darlings of mine came with a really rich chocolate cake and we cut them together with my family (who were also in shock) haha. My parents bought me a mango cake as well, so we cut 2 cakes one after another! thanks sweeties! and for the presents too..the lovely bag, both chip and dale key chain, pui sze's handmade cup cakes! and to sandra's ku ma, i really very touched to receive a present from her! haha..got to know san's ku ma when we did yuting's bday present this year at her house. glad she remembered me even though she calls me 'ribena' haha. =) san! your ku ma really nice! lets meet up together one day and eat 'fa shan hu' and 'chee cheong fan' together k! we spent a good solid 4 hours watching tv, looking at my holiday photos, playing guitar in my room, and just crapping! you guys made my sunday! so so happy!! and i had family dinner that night at Siglap's 'BIG FISH'. The food was really good and i had a great time bonding with my family =) thank you bro, daddy and mama. love ya all!!

Mon (13/11 - Actual bday)
Haha..i expected this day to be really simple...just meeting my 'kor' - Zhi zhong, for lunch and then go for dg and all. Never did i expect you to come with up with such a pleasant surprise for me. Thank you for being so thoughtful and arranging Acqua to come down to biz after my lecture and surprise me with a cake! Ice cream cake somemore..really delicious. Can't thank you enough. and to the rest of my acqua mates, thanks for coming down! really appreciate it! i was truly touched and surprised! you all got me there! really thought i was going to meet zhi zhong only. and 'kor', pls pls plsss do take care of ur health. hope ur heart gets better k! will pray for ya.

And my beloved DGL was so sweet. She bought pizza and a cake to celebrate my bday with the rest of my dg members during group time. And they wrote me a card..it was really sweet. their prayers for me and all on my bday...i am really thankful for them. Hope we all continue to grow spiritually and walk in the Christian road together for the next 4 years. =)

and thanks for spending the last few hours of my bday with me =)

Wed (15/11)
My dearest bitsies bluf me! i got cheated! haha i really thought we were going to k box! apparently, san told me that there's a new k box at Choa Chu Kang and thus i was asked to go there. I was surprised they asked me to go all the way down to such ulu place haha..when there's k box at clementi. But i didn't think too much into it. When i reached choa chu kang, i was asked to meet them at bus interchange. i was curious..why must take bus one? they said you can't walk to k box from mrt..quite far. And the bus ride was so long! haha didn't look like we're going to k box! and when i saw the road sign, 'MANDAI ZOO'. Then i got it! whoa lao..i super slow la! hahahha...it started to pour before we reached, and they were sad. haha..i was still wondering why sad since k box is not open area wad. Then i got it. haha. see how slow i am. And san kept saying, it might just be a passing cloud haha. It was funny! coz it didn't seem like its passing by only. haha. But thank God! the rain wasn't that heavy after we had our lunch at KFC! just slight drizzle!

thank you dearies for remembering that i wanna go to the zoo..something i requested you all to follow me go during our after a levels break! haha, but didn't manage to go then. indeed, i was shocked that you all brought me to the zoo though coz every time we go k box one ma! but this surprise really got me! =) kudos to you two! And thank you for all the presents! The really pretty picture board, the glow in the dark bottle, the wired name book mark, the chip and dale speaker, the self designed shoes, the socks that accompanies it, the cards, the tweety bird balloon, and the delicious biscuits and chocs! i'm really really very touched!! no words can express it really.

We had so much fun taking pictures and exploring the zoo with the map, despite the slight drizzle. It was such an educational trip! haha the orang utans were the cutest right! saw so many so many animals, had so much fun laughing and seeing yuting complaining how itchy she was coz of the many mosquito bites! It's been donkey years since i last went to the zoo!! and we truly enjoyed ourselves i'm sure =) and eating B&J icecream in the end! no words can describe the fun we had..so wait and see the pictures!

Just wanna say thank you to both of you, for making the effort to make my presents and think of such novel ideas to surprise me despite this busy period. I know how busy we are..esp yuting, how she had to chiong her project the past few weeks, with such minimal sleep. And yet, you all still met up to do my present and all. Really am so touched! You two are such darlings! Let's work hard for the next few weeks and then we'll celebrate on the 7th of Dec for k box okiez! we'll be high then i'm sure! =) with our bitsie power, we'll trash those nus papers ok! i'm always there to support you two! Love ya bitsies! HUGS. =)

And thank you to everyone else who remembered my bday and wished me. Cheng Hyork, Alex, Siang Weng, Zeinab, Guo Yi, Clara, Mei ling and jonathan from kpmg, polly my cousin, my maid, jia jia, Guo Liang, Xin Ling, Yi Ling, Guang Yi, Zach, Magdalena, Ivan, Wei liang, Padma, Siu Fen, Wilson, the entire Acqua, Muskebbits, Pui Sze, min hwee, hui lin, min joo, jess.....thank YOU ALL SO SO MUCH! LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS!!! (I hope i didn't miss out anyone!)

truly, i didn't expect my birthday to be so wonderful. Just a few days before my bday, i was thinking that my bday wld be very very quiet this year. Thank you all for all the surprises and well wishes. I am really blessed. =) Thank God for all of you!

don't have the cable to upload pics in pgp. will upload them another time! =)

2006-11-09T09:04:00.000-08:00

9 November'06

=)

2006-11-08T04:42:00.000-08:00

Today, today.. have been an extraordinary day.

Truly, today is probably the first time i felt so drained. Emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually.

That I felt so tired to do anything but to stare at my notes with negative thoughts lingering all over my head. I suppressed my feelings, and tried to smile. I guess i was successful since no one questioned if i was ok. Perhaps i have mastered that skill. The library seems to be my home in nus, a place where it is relatively quiet and i don't have to talk or smile and can just quietly pretend to study and escape from the world.

Today, i felt like running away..to somewhere far far away. I imagined myself hiding in some deserted place at night...imagined myeslf going abroad and wander around till i got lost...Today, i felt tired from asking God to guide me. Somehow, i have been praying and praying but i'm impatient. I want an ans. And i know God told me not to be anxious. Perhaps God is tired of listening to me everyday. Though i know everyone wld tell me otherwise.

Today is extraordinary coz God heard me. I was depressed, in distress, and Jess's msg came right in time, asking me if everything was alright. Dear, i know you're with me and it warms my heart. God sent her to me. Thankful for that. I was on the brink of tears, but i held on. and somehow, sandra was arnd to brighten me up. I realised then that in bad times, i cannot be left alone. Foolish thoughts will flood my mind. i would need things to occupy my thoughts.

Thanks san for the wonderful dinner we had and the awesome night we had yest. will upload the pics another time.

Through it all, God pulled me through today and i should be more than thankful. my faith is probably not as strong, but i hope its enough to sustain me through. and truly, no matter how many bad times we may have, you've been a true blessing. thank God for you. The human's heart is an amazing little thing God has created..something so mysterious and bewildering. or is it just me..perhaps..i'm truly disappointed with myself.

A bday treat!

2006-11-05T05:33:00.000-08:00

my 2 darlings yi ling and jia min dearly remembered xin ling's and my bday =) and so the bday dinner treat from them!

and they gave us each a flower! mine is pink and xin ling's red! how sweet~! and we had fun catching up and getting to know how they're doing in uni. Miss them dearly...hope to catch up with them again after exams.

apparently, being photo whores, after dinner..we just had to snap snap and snap! xin ling and jia min even had a flower fight! and i took a video of it hehehe...

though u guys might not be seeing this, but anyhow, thanks for the dinner and flower and everything. you guys are such sweethearts =) hugs.

the mini battle they had...my poor flower..

i requested them to do ghostly faces. they are simply so cute..

and i wanted to participate...mine didn't turn out ghostly..but look at jia min! looks scary! esp her claws haha

ok the bday gal with her sweet little flower..

just acting cheeky..'acting' :P

see how happy jia min is when ppl are taking her photos! she claimed, " i feel like a model" hahahaha. she's one pretty babe

us! like this pic lots!

smilee~!

with yi ling!

the bday gals. it was so coincidental both of us wore pink today. great minds think alike? =)

cheers to us for our 19th bday! she's 19 but mine..close! sweet sweet 19

2006-11-04T19:51:00.000-08:00

God is forever faithful really. He brings people to brace me up as i journey through life. Really thankful. I had a good time of sharing with Gen today as we did our follow up. The testimonies we shared, the struggles we're facing now, the advices we provide for each other, and simply just praying with each other..all these encourages me and keeps me going. Such a dear sister in Christ. I might establish a mentor mentee relationship with her, as she suggested, but i'll pray abt it =) It would be nice to have someone more spiritually mature than me to guide me along and keep me on the right track.

I feel comforted, knowing how God has worked so wonderfully in people's lives. Testimonies are really amazing. That God will never forsake us and give us too big a problem that we cannot pull through. And when we look back at the dark times, we can see how God has helped us through and marvel at God's wonderful plan He has for each and everyone of us.

Key verse for follow up today.

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."

I have this sense of peace in my heart that God is guiding me as i walk closer with Him. I have been reminded during the past 2 days that whatever decision you make, do not be afraid if its wrong. As long as you're working in accordance with God's will, always committed and faithful to God, even if the decision is wrong, God can easily steer you back. God is forever faithful. Give thanks. =)

happy sunday! jia min and yi ling gonna give me and xl a bday dinner treat tonite! wee~! been a long time since i last saw those 2 darlings. hope to have a nice time of catching up tonite!

Realised i've not been putting pictures up in my blog so i've decided to put some random pictures up:

It's totally random that i put this pic here. but i'm reminiscing the-after-a-levels-holidays now as i browse thru the pics in my com. hee hee. we had such a fun wet hike! memories memories..

san! i thought u might want this since i didn't bluetooth it to you. such a cutie pic bitsie! giggles. =)

and finally..i can never have enough of this boy. he's such a cheerful cutsie little boy who never fails to brighten people up. =) God's blessing!

2006-11-03T21:47:00.000-08:00

All i can say is that i'm unworthy...and the more i think, the more ashamed i feel.

2006-11-03T08:22:00.000-08:00

awesome God

My all time favourite Christian song...

Touching and impactful video. God is awesome indeed.

2006-11-03T07:06:00.000-08:00

Michael W. Smith - You Are Holy (Prince of Peace)

" For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles. Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creater-who is forever praised. Amen" Romans 1:21-25

Today has been one of the rarest times that I did my quiet time before i started doing my work. and boy, it was good. I feel calm once again, knowing that i've lifted all my burdends and worries to Him. Came across this verse in Romans and it kinda struck me that I have only worshipped God in name and not in heart. How ashamed i have been.

I have fallen. But I am no longer fallen. I am pulling myself up with God's strength in me. Slowly, I'm growing and turning to God. God - my prince of peace forever. I'll live my life for You. =)

2006-11-01T10:19:00.000-08:00

I'm beyond hope. I really don't understand more and more of myself everyday. I feel different from what i think and i act according to what i think. and i dun understand why my feelings are so erratic. and i indulge myself with work which temporarily puts off all these little things that bothers me.

and i realised i'm quite a loner. i enjoy doing things alone, being independent. Strangely, i don't really feel sad being alone. I enjoy stuyding alone, shopping alone at times, eating alone isn't a problem for me. haha i think i should just be a wanderer.

wads wrong with me? i find myself gettting more and more different each day. and my feelings just confused me more and more everyday too. bah. studying is a temporary escape route.

yet, i'm not unhappy. i'm feeling perfectly normal, just wondering why i'm feeling strangely again.

God is good, all the time!

2006-10-28T04:10:00.000-07:00

I'm really thankful, especially when i'm in the midst of hectic schedules, that people are praying for me and have shown concern in one way or another. The simplest form of sms or mere tagging on my tagboard warms my heart. Thank God for you all, for being blessings in my life.

God is wonderful and awesome, really. Just a few days back, i was feeling really up to my neck. so stretched, as though i couldn't go on anymore. (as evidenced by my previous post) But now! despite knowing that i still have mountainful pieces of work undone, there's this sense of inner peace within that He will provide. and its inexplicable, i can sense a tinge of calmness, of course coupled with some stress and worries still. Yesterday, i had my DG and it was good! It was such a splendid time talking with li jing and my dgl, josephine, about issues relating to life. I asked a number of questions, which probably seem mundane to some. But i'm inquisitive in nature i feel haha, always seeking answers to my questions. For example, i asked why we, Man, have to suffer the consequences of Adam's and Eve's sin. Why must there be the tree of Good and Evil in the garden of Eden in the first place? Why can't God just forgive all our sins and not sent Jesus to the cross? It's indeed enlightening to hear what Joe has to say to my questions. =) Thank God for that opportunity really. I still have many questions, but i know slowly and steadily, as i continue to read His word, i will gain wisdom along the way and grow. Stir concert was great too! went with 2 of them after our DG. There was a variety of songs, and what struck me most was the sharing session by one of the band members, about how we can find freedom because we have Christ in our lives. It was inspiring and touching as he shares his testimony. Oh, and their composed songs really relate to our lives in general. For example, they had this song 'masquerade' which talks about how people put on masks all the time, and the thousand faces one has. Really thank God that people were brought forward in the event, that there was one who received Christ that night! how wonderful! =) Praise God!

Today, i was late for church. Supposed to meet my SYC comm to put up the hangers at ROL (River of Life). Sorry! was delayed due to make up lecture and i also kinda fell asleep. =X my bad! but it was really nice! with all the hangers hung up! and we had a prayer session for SYC. It was really good. Can feel that God is working within our team, that this camp will not be for us to have fun, but to expand His kingdom and bring more to Christ. Will cont to keep SYC in prayer!

cell was good too! wow, today's attendance was really good! Today, we talked about 2 signposts, mainly The "Stop" Sign & The "fork in the road" sign. Waiting demonstrates faith in God instead of ourselves. Because we dont' want to regret in the future, it is vital to wait for the Lord. We must always be committed to the Lord to wait for what He provided. We have to believe that what God provides is better than what i can do by myself and we should never be impatient. Must always fix our eyes on Him, and not light our own fires and make hasty decisions.

Isaiah 50: 10-11.
" Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let him who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the Lord and rely on his God. But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go, walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze. This is what you shall receive from my hand: You will lie down in torment."

The Fork in the road sign is about the "sound mind" principle. We should always have the mind of Christ. 2 Tim 1:7 "For God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power and love and discipline". Discipline here means " a sound mind" or "sound judgement". Thus, God gave us a mind that works. If we are walking with Him, we dont' disengage our brian but we use it. God created us with minds, and He intends that we use them. Yet, there is danger in trusting too much in our own logic. One near-fatal flaw we have is our innate tendency to "lean on our own understanding". Proverbs 3:5-6.

Matthew 22:37. "love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and mind". W should love the Lord with not only our hearts, but minds as well. Often, we try to separate the intellectual from the spiritual. But God, who created the mind, delights in our putting it to use. Using it properly should move us to love Him more.

The key to the sound mind principle is being in right relationship with God. Only "he who is spiritual" can operate with the mind of Christ.

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Most of what i've written is taken from this book i'm learning in cell. This book is really good. Very apt to real life issues. Things about the heart and mind and all, how we should make decisions, seek counsel and everything... It's good =) Thank God for today's cell. and reallly wanna thank those who have listened to my prayer requests and prayed for me. Prayer works wonders!

These few days, i feel that i'm getting closer and closer to God, depsite how stretched i may be. It's been my desire to be spiritually revived and to know God more and more each day. I realised God is always there for me, it's just me being so overwhelmed with work that i have neglected Him. Really, spending time with God is so valuable, much more valubale than studying for exams. Of course, i will cont to work but i'll give a portion of my time to Him everyday coz i know He will provide and all i have to do is to trust in Him.

Follow up with Gen after service tmr! =)

and yes, i've got to rush through my work again! the weekends always pass very fast like a bullet train! its sunday already in a few hours time!! heez, take care everyone! HUGS! =D

2006-10-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

I'm really tired...worsened off with my headache right now.

yet, there are so many things bombarding my mind, pestering me to do them.

i know i can't put all these aside for too long or there'll be consequences that i've to face.

i just want peace. and shut myself off this complicated world, full of complex emotions, stress, problems coupled with happiness here and there. just temporarily.

i need a breather.

but i've got so many datelines to meet. ARGH.

think i need to be alone, to find myself back, to find inner peace, to rebuild my energy once again. i feel like a withered plant right now, lacking the energy to move on and grow.

peace out. hope i get thru this period.

2006-10-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

ing - lucky star

hee san! i'm kinda addicted to this song! thanks for intro-ing it to me! haha it prevents me from sleeping. =) our next k box session MUST sing this okie! sure get high together!! =) we're all itching to go k! haha

been busy!!!

2006-10-19T06:50:00.000-07:00

projects and more projects...

publicity and more publicity...

and the never ending tutorials and lectures...

i feel stretched. been feeling really tired these few days....i have barely 4 hours of sleep each day this week. and my days are really long..8am to perhaps 7-8 pm at night. that explains why i hardly blog these few days... =) plus the taggy board is so irritating haha.

i've been putting a lot a lot of effort into my projects...probably spending most of my time on project meetings and all. i hope it all pays off. and i'm really thankful for my project groups esp for CTW and MNO. my project mates are lovely...cooperative, funny, friendly, sensitive, understanding... really, i can't thank God more. It's been such an enjoyable time working with them. MNO project will be due next wed and we had such a fun time doing the video though meetings were always so long and tiring for us. CTW first draft will be due tmr...i really appreciate my CTW group. =) they are such darlings...we do eveyrthing together..even the writing of the entire project. Perhaps its more inefficient this way, but the process of brainstorming and doing it together leaves memorable memories. How we keep eating and craving for eng chicken pie, and laughing at our own silly creative ideas for our recommendations. we are one creative and crazy group...we even call ourselves the "Democratic Youth Society" how silly. sometimes, ctw makes us so high we just started crapping and laughing all the way. braindamaged heh. i just printed the first draft..and its really pretty =) hope everything goes well!

but i know life is not all bout studies and canoeing. despite all the busy schedules and all, God is still in the centre of everything..that i know. Without Him being my focus, everything else is meaningless and it makes me feel empty. in everything, i'll still give thanks no matter how rotten or how tired i feel at times. I'll cont to draw strength from Him. =)

and min hwee...i'm so happy u are willing to join canoeing! hee..and sandra! it's always enjoyable having dinner with u..just sitting at our usual place in PGP and crapping =) i like our dining spot btw! so nice to eat dinner there. and my dear yuting...where are u?! i miss u gal...update me and san okiez!!

and jess dear...take good care of ur health with the haze and all. hope internship going well for u! keep going k!

i'm worried for my subjects...esp my fna. i just have some fear for it...pray God will guide me through it. sigh. there's so much studying to do..yet i'm still struggling with my projects and all. time time time...where art thou?

i'll be busy for the next few weeks....prob wun be blogging often or meeting up with ppl often. pls do understand!! really appreciate it =)

will keep all of u in my prayers...God loves us all.

i had such a feast!

2006-10-11T06:28:00.000-07:00

Today turned out pretty good..thought i would be quite bored today since lessons end at 12. Thank God for friends...Min hwee, min joo and san came over to my room at 4 plus..and we were just having fun all the way crapping, singing, laughing, and just high-ing all the way. we had fun yea. =)

Then we headed to munchie munkeys for dinner coz pui sze wanted to see me..hahha thats according to wad mh said. :P and thanks to ps, now every staff in munchie knows me! since she and my bro works there...haha ps, dun u bully my bro! =P

we had such a feast and we really looked like we didn't have dinner for 3 days. We had:

- 2 bowls of chicken soup
- fried calamari
- crayfish pasta
- ham and cheese baked rice
- brownie with ice cream
- waffle with ice cream

GOSH. ok, i feel super super bloated after that somemore my dearies kept making me laugh so hard. or i made them laugh too hard too. oops! i just felt the song u all hum was like 'gong xi' song hahaha didn't know it was some oldie song.. we laughed so hard i think ppl thought we were insane. laughing with a full tummy is bad. after dinner, i felt so full to walk. walking to toilet was so difficult haha...and we still went to cheers to buy snacks. haha. we are hungry monsters. can't wait to eat the snack sandra recommended but i'm too full to eat now. Walked back from YIH to PGP..gosh, it was tiring.so hot and so full and upslope somemore. but sandra is strong haha kept saying it's just a short walk. i felt so full to breathe! yuting! we're alike i realise..i also feel like i can't breathe when i'm very full hahaha..miss you gal, u MIA so long already! meet up soon! and haha sandra, it was nevertheless a nice walk back...laughing at me for thinking 'feng huang' is pineapple and singing songs together! i'll see u every week la, dun worry! =) just so happen tmr i got project meeting so can't meet u for dinner..sorry ya.. and all the best for ur assignment and projects! go go bitsie! u can do it!

ok, i had a great time today..thank you dearies for entertaining me haha...and thanks ps for serving us too! happy to see u! =)

okiez, i'm really behind my schedule for work... =( i'll sleep late tonight if i can last. take care peeps..hugs

Random

2006-10-10T01:04:00.000-07:00

Mid term tests are over for me...i guess other than FNA, the rest were ok. kinda didn't do well for today's fna..it's one of my weakest sub i feel but its ok, i still give thanks and will cont to work hard. no point lamenting about it anyway =)

anyway, these few days have been like a roller coaster ride for me. emotions wise and studies wise...but God never forsakes me. He wouldn't ever do that, to me or to any of you. Give thanks for that =) No matter how arduous the jouney of life maybe, no matter how unfair things may appear to be, no matter how painful relationships may get, no matter how badly some people may perceive you to be... we all know that God is with us n that we should focus not on how ppl think of us, but rather, how God thinks of us. coz we only wanna please God..and fulfill His expectations of us to be spirit filled soldiers, always living according to His will.

Guess this period wld be hectic to all of us..have to meet project datelines, rush tutorials, and by then, exams would have come. But let's all draw strength from Him, and work together towards the finishing line. Sandra, think u're probably too busy to read blogs nowadays thats why nvr update..i understand ur project datelines are all so tight..but i'm here to support you okie...and keeping u in my prayers as well...just keep going and keep trusting in Him. love ya. =)

i hope all my other friends are coping well.. do take care of your health and God bless all of u. huggss.

2006-10-09T01:37:00.000-07:00

Liu Geng Hong & Evonne Hsu - xin dong xin tong

ohh haha sandra...u ever heard of this song?! its quite nice! we sing next time k!

ok..i better go back to studying now...so distracted by chinese pop :P

and jess..take gd care of ur health! will catch up with u soon..miss ya loads dear =) hugggss

2006-10-09T01:30:00.000-07:00

Rainie Yang Cheng Lin - ke ai

I like this song =) coz the tune is really nice and soothing.

I guess english songs often make me ponder a lot coz the meaning is very evident.. haha chinese songs i tend to focus on the tune rather than the meaning..and it won't make me ponder so much..chinese songs cheer me up!

anyway, bitsies and mh! i miss u alll...i so wanna go k box! haha..but we're all so busy...i shall wait patiently for our next k box session ;)

can't wait for exams and projects to be overrrr...i wanna playyyy heez =)

Father, I'm sorry...

2006-10-07T04:39:00.000-07:00

Above all kingdoms,
Above all thrones,
Above all wonders the world has ever known.
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth,
There's no way to measure what you're worth.

Crucified,
Laid behind the stone.
You lived to die,
Rejected and alone.
Like a rose trampled on the ground,
You took the fall and thought of me,
Above all.

Lord, sorry for disappointing you time and time again, i'm truly ashamed of myself. I've not lived according to Your will. I've failed to be a good disciple of Yours. I've sinned terribly, and praised you with an insincere heart. Time and time again, I've neglected you, taking You for granted. God, i really am not worth for Your love. Despite my uncountable sins, You have never forsaken me, never giving up hope on me. You're my creator, my God, my Father, my best friend, my lover, my saviour, my pillar, my redeemer, my teacher, my comforter. You've taken up all roles there can possibly have and fulfilled them without flaw and yet, i've failed to be a good daughter of Yours. Sorry God...i'm ashamed and i gladly bow down on my knees, surrendering my all to you. Take it, Lord...You know Father, how much i yearn to see you everyday..how much i desire to hold Your hand..to hug you so very tightly and never letting you go. Father, everytime i imagine You on the cross... it hurts me badly and i wish, i was there instead of You. So often, i wonder how heaven would be like, and wonder what's in store for me. I want to sit beside You, talk to You, laugh with You, play with You..God, i know You are hurt everytime i cry and when i'm in pain. I longed for your comfort, your guidance...but in all honesty, there are times i am desperately trying to hear Your voice. You know it all God..I'm crying out so badly to You, hoping You would respond to me immediately..but i know by faith, that You're there and that You've heard me and have cried with me. I don't know how my life would turn out to be, and i know i shouldn't be afraid of the future. But i'm Lord...I pray for strength right now, and this sense of inner peace that can come only from You. As i tear right now, You may not be here physically to wipe it dry for me..but o Lord, please reassure me of Your presence..I pray for revival of faith, that I would be strong no matter how difficult life may be, no matter how tiring it gets. This prayer God, i commit into Your hands.. i'm sorry and i love You... In Jesus most precious name, Amen.

[Guo yi, thanks for being so nice to pass me your external drive, full with Christian songs. As i struggled through the whole of today, your songs really encouraged and touched me...thanks for being such a blessing. God bless you.]

2006-10-06T22:58:00.000-07:00

sometimes...i just wanna run far far away, yet i know, i can never run away from God...

Breathe on me, lamb of God.

Happy birthday mummy... =)

2006-10-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

[decided to edit this post..felt i was a little insensitive in the unedited version yepp]

I know i have a test tmr and i haven't finish studying but oh well..this post is dedicated to my mummy so its important =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA! ( bro and i call my mom 'ma' =P )

Despite our hectic schedules in sch, my bro and i made the effort to come back home today just to celebrate my mom's bday and give her a little surprise since unlike last time, i'll be away from home during her bday this year. After discussing our timetable, my bro and i managed to come up with an agreement; which is to come home at arnd 11 pm today since he only finishes his tuition at 10.30! busy bro! =) but really thank him for making the effort to get my mom a cake and pressie (pink cardigan - my bro has gd taste!) and i went to get the card :P he got no mid term test to study heh. but nevertheless, the surprise turned out great. We went home together, quietly prepared the cake on the dining table with the gifts and we both went up to my parents' room and SURPRISE! =) My mom initial look was puzzled (probably wondering if she saw us correctly) haha..yes, i'm home! to add on, she called me at 9.30 today to ask me the usual stuff like drink water and all...and she knew i had a test tmr..so she really didn't expect i wld come home. after realising that it was really me and my bro, she smiled and asked how come suddenly come back..haha she got a shock. yay..surprise accomplished! poor daddy was more sick than before..he got mc today. sigh. really hope he gets better! anyway, we asked our parents to go downstairs..and there was the cake and gifts.

The smile on my mom's face says it all.

We sang happy birthday, gathered around the dining table and eat the cake and my mom tried on the cardigan and read the card. hee...my bro is gd at buying gifts! it suits my mom perfectly =) really nice pinkish red colour!

and my dad was concerned. he looked at me while i was eating and said...how come u getting thinner day by day? haha i was like..hmm really meh? then i just said coz i've been sleeping little, too much work, and pgp food really sucks. haha. but i still eat! anyway, its nice to spend time with my family on such special occassion. really warm =)

and tmr's mle test seems so insignificant at that point in time. putting a smile on my mom's face is much more important and valauble =) really glad she was happy and touched. happy birthday ma...we love you!

I've been too stretched lately..probably because my body isn't well at the same time. Yest was really bad! i felt nauseous and giddy during maths lect, and i had to go to the toilet and vomit. but i didn't eat much in the morn. guess the phlegm is choking me..had to cough it out! and then i had a really long day yest..from 8 am all the way to 8.30 pm. project meeting for 4 over hours and everyone was so quiet. sigh. but nevertheless, managed to get wad we wanted done..and sunday morn, i've to go back sch to do video. bah. i'm skipping sunday's service...i don't want to, but there's no other days my team members can meet and the dateline is very near. but despite all the tiredness, God spoke to me yest. I prayed to God for strength coz i felt i was breaking down. i sat on my bed, took out my bible, and just opened it. it just so happened that i opened the book of eccelessiates. (dunno how to spell) and it really is so real. Chapt 1 talks about how wisdom and all other pursuits are meaningless if it's not for the glory of God. all the tutorials, lectures, tests, projects, canoeing courses, publicity work...wad will all this come to if i don't use it for God? really..we don't have to do all these to prove our abilities coz God already know our limits. why do we have to prove to ourself that we can do it when we already know that with God, all things can be done? there's no need for competition to prove our abilities coz by faith, we know things will turn out fine.

we can never be the best since God will always be the best. so just do our best, and leave the rest to God! it's that simple yet many of us, even me, can't apply it to our lives. when we do well, how often do we attribute these grades to God's work? or do we claim credit for ourselves, thinking that we are just capable..its my ability..my intelligence..my hardwork. really, i think all of us should constantly remind ourself that its not about 'me', but its about Him. our lives is not for us, it's for Him.

think i've said too much! better cont mugging now..friends, do cont to pray for me okie! i've got meeting agains straight after tmr's test till late at night..and meeting on friday again! church on sat, project on sunday, bible study on mon, and tue fna test! GOSH. i'm so dead. plus tutorials, plus research, plus canoeing course coming, plus canoeing publicity work. ARGH. when i'm weak, He will lift me up. i will just commmit all these into His hands.

2006-09-30T03:24:00.000-07:00

I don't know why i'm blogging so frequently when i still have lots of studying undone. haha, whack myself for being so distracted.

Anyway, Zhi Zhong kor, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!
Hope you have a smashing 21st birthday. It's your special day today, really hope you have a fun filled and blessed one. Just wanna say that its a real blessing to know you, to 'acknowledge' you as my 'kor', to spend memorable memories with you and the rest in Acqua. How we often teased each other, laugh with each other, crap with each other, listen to each other, confiding, comforting and encouraging each other. Thank you lotss. you rock! may you continue to light up ppl's lives okie! take care kor! ;) and once again, happy happy birthday!

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAGDALENA too!
I know she won't see this but anyway, just wanna wish her happy bday =) It's been so long since i last see her..say sec 4? She's one gal i will nvr forget..i remember the times she stood by me, the times she comforted me, gave me advice and listening to me. She was one of my closest friend in secondary school..but sadly, we drifted apart after sec 4. Yet, i have not forgotten her...and its nice to know that she hasn't forgotten me when we smsed each other today. Hope to meet up soon with her and catch up. really would like to know how's she's like now, curious to know if she has changed in looks, and hope our once close-friendship can be rebuilt once again. may God bless her in every part of her life.

anyway, my mom was packing some stuff at home and opened a photo album, containing honeymoon pictures with her and my dad. awwww...it was sooo sweet. and she was so pretty (ok correct that, she's still pretty now. my prettiest mommy) she was and still thin! I exclaimed when i saw her pic, "how come so thin?". and she said her waist line was like 22-23. GOSH. *envy and pouts (how come i dun have it! haha) anyway, she was really pretty! like some model..lucky daddy heh. and my dad, haha looking so cool in the pics. they looked so loving awww. their honeymoon is really what i want my honeymoon to be like in the future. haha i was like..wow. They went to aussie, new zealand..all the grasslands, mountains, flowers, farms..how sweet. their blissful marriage is i guess, something everyone wld hope for. =) really happy for my parents! haha though i know its weird saying it. but i'm really thankful for them, thankful that my mom is ever so tolerant when my dad gets unreasonable, thankful that my dad doesn't any o how blow his top at my mom, thankful that both of them love each other till today, thankful for their existence for without them, i won't be here today.

haha. my mom just came into my room. and she really surprises me sometimes. my lappie was playing jay's 'qian li zhi wai' and when she heard that song, she told me she know that song..even the title! wow..trendy mommy. =)

ok, davina, enuff of blogging!!! i'm outta here! ;)

pics pics and more pics

2006-09-29T18:18:00.000-07:00

bbq after canoeing from kallang to ecp

and this is what will happen when i get bored...and there's a camera on hand..

me and berenice!

joanna and me

kill jevon! :P

i just had to spoil the pic.. =P

the 3 self-claimed charlie angels hehe

canoeing 1 star course

2006-09-28T11:01:00.001-07:00

I SURVIVED!!!

thank God! When the course first started out yesterday, gosh, i didn't know there were so much skills to pick up. I actually got quite stressed, afraid i cant apply them and the instructor was quite serious. =X Anyway, i've learnt quite a bit...capsizing, rescuing, draw stroke, reverse strong, forward pull and all...rescuing is really tiring anyway. capsizing was hmm quite fun though quite scary at first...i had to capsize like 3 times coz i keep coming out of the water from the wrong direction! then kelvin let me off coz he realised i just have the natural tendency to float out from that direction..hahaha...u know, i really just floated out after i came out from the kayak underwater..and i knew i was in the wrong direction, so i wanted to go back to the water and swim across to the right direction..but can't coz the floating device wldn't allow me to. haha..quite funny actually.

In all, it was really tiring. Been so long since i felt so drained out physically and mentally. My muscles are really sore now, and i'm tanned. BAH. i put sunblock already... =( and i got sea sick! felt so giddy esp at east coast since the currents were quite huge. the drift was quite big. Anyway, i kayaked from kallang to east coast, and back to east coast for the xpedition. The rest of the time was practicing strokes and capsizing and all...was quite shiong actually. Lucky i got partner! and i'm really thankful and touched that jian liang went to help me buy giddy pills coz i was feeling quick sick when we were doing rescuing at east coast. SO HEAVY LA THE CAPSIZED KAYAK! haha and they made us do like 4-5 times. gosh.

and guess what, my instructor is my brother's friend. and he got so shocked. and kept threatening me that he can fail my assessment. aiyoo see wad happens when there's too many connections.

BBQ was alright. when a group of arnd 15 guys gather together, what are the topics u all normally talk about? i got so disgusted with their conversation topics. so insensitive to gals arnd. sigh. they got so excited talking and i was just dumbfounded and speechless that i made my way to the toilet. hear no evil.

slept in the tent at east coast. was really cold coz the breeze was very strong. the floor was so hard, it felt so uncomfortable. and it was sandy too..haha..woke up so many times in the middle of the night.

Hmm on the way back from east coast, i was really worried i cldn't do it coz i felt quite sick and i didn't have much energy left. i tried to hum 'God will make a way' and prayed that God will give me strength =) tried to come up with conversations with my partner, come up with lame jokes and asking ppl to sing along and entertain me. haha..With God's grace and mercy, i reached the shore safely...really thank God.

Now, i'm quite worried. 2 star course gonna commence in 2 weeks time and i've do it alone this time. no idea how i'm gonna do it. and i realised every comm member has to lead in xpeditions n probably have to do it alone. HOWWW...big sigh, God help me!

anyway, though it was really tiring, it really tested on my endurance, perseverance and faith. There's much to learn from this experience really..how i cannot do this alone, that i have to get the support from team membres and God. In the middle of the sea, there's no way u can turn back..no one is gonna go back with u. U just have to move on. really pushed myself all the way. thank God for journey mercy. To all those who prayed for me, thank you =) really appreciate it.

[and i think you're right. i didn't think it was anything back then...but u felt there was smth fishy,. and now, i really think there might be smth going on. i hope things won't escalate to the level where i've to hurt anyone.]

and my mid term! SIGH. i only have 3 pathetic days left. HOW HOW HOW! gonna depend on God again! =) i'm bounded by limited human strength. Without God, i can do nothing! my faith has to pull me through the next few weeks. i must stay strong...u too k...

thank God for friends

2006-09-26T05:37:00.000-07:00

SANDRA! you are such dearie.. =)

just when i was unconsciously about to fall asleep, my maid came to the room and passed me a letter. I was surprised to receive a mail, its been so long i get one..when i looked at the handwriting, i knew instantly it was you. haha...i opened it excitedly, and saw 2 postcards, nicely written with a sweet yellow ribbon on it. i'm so so so touched bitsie...it was so sweeet.. your encouragement, your motivation and its so very nice to know that no matter what happens, you'll be there for me. =) love ya lots bitsie! cheered me up a whole lot after reading that sweet little note from you to me! cont to fight on with our bitsie power k, i'll be there for you too no matter what! love yaa!

and to you, thanks for your constant encouragement too! am always happy to hear from you no matter which communication mode u used. =) though i was really unproductive today, and have a high probability of not being able to finish studying by the end of the mid term break, and probably feeling unconfident now, i am still happy today..coz of my deariess =) thank God for them! its nice to know that i'm not alone! we'll run the race together and hold on to our dreams! ;)

ok i have just roughly packed for my canoeing course tmr! am looking forward to it now since i heard i don't have to do it in singles..phew..i hope its whole load of fun! and goodness, its 8.40 already...i better go start studying...i'm quite screwed...coz i'm so very distracted. heez..i need prayers to focus! anyway, to all my friends, alll of you will be kept in my prayer too..just know that my ear is always available for all of you! my hugs too! heeez HUGGIES! =)

take care everyone! lets draw strength from Him..when it seems like we can't go on any further, when it seems like its the end of the road, He'll be there to guide us out of the darkness and pull us up from the pit. He's a light unto our path.

2006-09-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

why - nicole nordeman

The first time i heard this song was in sec 2 or sec 3. I liked the song instantly.. It's really touching...it can really make one tear.

Living for Him

2006-09-23T19:33:00.000-07:00

It's the sabbath day once again =) praise the Lord

Today's service was refreshing. My church celebrated Children Ministry sunday today..and the kids were really enthusiastic. It's just so heartwarming to see these little children of God praising Him with their smiles, their voices, their movements. really thank God for children. They are such little blessings..

Sermon though simple, but contains a great meaning in it. It talks about getting R.E.A.L. (Relationship, excited, approving, live) Basically, we need to have a strong relationship with God, be excited to know Him, live a life that is approved by Him and always living to glorify Him. It just reminds me of how i'm not living a God centred life now. and i thank God for this reminder. I realised i've been too focused on academics, on the numerous group and canoeing meetings, so much so i've put God aside. However ashamed i am, i repent. I questioned myself today, asking if i want to spend my uni life cooped up in my room, studying all day long and get the results i want..or reaching out to people, bring them to Christ and doing His work. It then dawned on me that, these results, no matter how good or how bad..it wont carry with me to eternity. I want to lead a balance life, one that enables me to touch other ppl's lives, yet at the same time not neglecting my studies too. Perhaps i'm too easily influenced by situations around me...when datelines come, i tend to focus more on work because i get stressed and want to get it done. At times like these, it seems hard to deal with these datelines and yet at the samme time, spend time with friends going out and all...this one thing i have to grapple and learn.

i want to lead a God centered life and not a life revolving around my ambitions, goals or even ppl's expectations of me. often, i'm tempted to study rather than spending my quiet time with God..tempted to chat rather than to pray..tempted to stay at home rather than going church..all these temptations i want to overcome. I know God will always provide a way out for these temptations..i'll keep trusting and know that God will provide. My life is complete because i know God. His love alone can change lives..how mighty that is. let us stop focusing on ourselves, but shift this focus to Him.

God is behind you to support you.
God is in front of you to lead you.
God is beside you to comfort you.
God is in you, to love you.

Thank you God for creating me..

Reminiscing my time in KPMG

2006-09-23T05:05:00.000-07:00

My manager!

Karen! my direct senior..really patient and understanding =)

my dear meiling! i miss her the most!!!!! love her lots lots...without her, i'd prob wun survive in kpmg for 5 mths..she has taught me so so much...there's endless things to talk abt when i'm with her...she really rox!

haha handsome guy..

the temp staff i worked with! great bunch of ppl =)

only posted a few pics..started to reminiscise when i was browsing thru the pics in my com...though there were ups and downs working at kpmg, i've really learnt quite a bit abt the working world..it was tiring, stressful, but enjoyable and definitely an eye opener..thank God for that opportunity i had.

2006-09-15T19:20:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday bitsie bao ka liao!

2006-09-15T06:48:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SANDRA YAM (MUSKEBBIT BAO KA LIAO)!

Hope you really had a blast for ur bday this year! Yuting n i planned 2 surprises for you! At 12am, the start of your birthday, i tried to trick you to come my room by saying there's a beetle that i need you to help me remove in my toilet. but i think apparently, u knew smth was fishy but still played along..haha..gd, at least u played along! At the meantime, dear yuting was hiding in the toilet with all the gifts on the toilet bowl, and she holding on to our hand made heart shaped jelly..waiting to surprise u. =) Hope you really like all the gifts! esp the cushion yuting and i designed and sewed!

We had so much fun that night, happily eating the jelly (lucky its edible!), singing songs, laughing and laming arnd...and u and yuting same kind..cannot cry one.hahha..ok i sound sadistic. we laughed and talked quite a bit that night..and you two slept over! yay..it reminded me of the time we spent in KL...sleeping together in the hotel. It's so warm to have u 2 sleeping with me haha..and san discovered someone in our midst can sleep talk haha..(hope it wasn't me =X)

Today, yuting and i went to k box earlier to decorate the room with balloons and happy birthday banner. Hope you like the design and surprise! haha it's like some bday party la! i'm sure u were really surprised today! and we had so much fun again singing and getting high! =)

Bitsie san, are u touched! u better be! we put in a lot of effort and time! haha i even brought my fridge from my house especially for your jelly! or else i wldn't even be bothered to carry such a heavy fridge to my room haha...even my parents were mobilised to help me! :) haha, but now its a gd thing i have a fridge heh heh..can put more after eight chocolates hehe! in all, just wanna wish u a happy happy birthday from the bottom of my heart. ur bday is very special coz u're special! love ya! (give u a warm tight bitsie hug) =)

yuting, i had a great time meeting up with u to do the jelly and cushion and decorating k box room! we succeeded! yay! give u a pat on ur back! kudos to us! =)

birthday celebrations make me learn a lot haha..now i know how to sew and cook a little!

love ya bitsies! time spent with u 2 is always so fun and memorable =)

and to you...hope u feeling better alright...will continue to keep you in my prayers. things will work out, dun worry. =) stay strong! u've got my support always! ;)

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i'm really really busy this coming week...i'm worried i can't cope.. i've got like almost 10 things on my agenda to complete during the weekend but time is so limited..dunno wad to do. got family dinner n gathering tmr and church on both days. I'm so screwed. hope i can survive this coming week. friends, pleassee do keep me in your prayers! thanks, appreaciate it lots! i'm drawing strength from Him..coz i really can't do this alone. i'm gonna struggle with little sleep this weekend.. =(